Feelings and memories from a recurring dream i used to have as a child? Why?

Question

I used to have 2 different types of recurring dreams between i think the ages of 4 and 17.

They both had the WEIRDEST feeling, and those feelings were never ever reproduced in ANY dream ever like these 2 recurring dreams.

I really can't explain them but the second dream I remember i used to sleep walk, go out in my hallway and stand there feeling weird, while sleeping, then I would walk over to my parents bedroom and stare at them and get a horrible feeling. I think I would cry, but my parents actually caught me doing this a few times. It was not scary but brought along a very daunting feeling. Other than that I don't remember much and I could never figure out the first dream.

So when I was 19 I was diagnosed with ADHD and Bipolar I.

So I never had these dreams again after the age of 17.

Lately my mind has slipped due to the constant mixed state episode.

So in the last month or so, certain things are triggering these feelings, especially the from the first dream. Like I was just reading something and read a word, AND BAM, i literally felt the dream and the daunting feeling hit me for a second, and then disappeared suddenly.

The triggers are anything. People, places, movies, tv, ANYTHING.

I don't get why this is happening, could it have to do with my mental illness?

Is this some type of PTSD or something bottled up?

My parents really didn't start emotionally abusing me till i was 16, so i know its not that.... its weird....

Answer 1

sometimes it's not ADHD it could be as simple as that something happened that you never faced as an Adult that can also bring on reoccurring dreams also Emotional abuse leaves just as many scares as physical or sexual abuse does and if you never confront them you may never over come the reoccurring dreams

Answer 2

I just finished answering your other questions and I left you a lengthy email.  From what you are saying, I feel you should probably get a doctor and be on bipolar meds.  The fact that you have suicidal thoughts worries me to no end not to mention homicidal thoughts.  

As I explained to you in prior answers and email, I feel your Dad is in denial and that you just recently are accepting the fact that you need help.  While I understand completely you hesitancy to take prescription bipolar meds, I feel that you will ultimately have no choice.

You deserve better in your life than to continue the way you are spiralling out of control in mania and then delving deep into the bowels of depression and then sometimes having those feeling at the same time.  More than likely, I feel lamictal which is a mood stabilizer or a similar drug would enable you to function better.

Please read my answers to your other questions, not just your recent questions and also my email.  Feel free to email me if I can be of any help.

Good luck.  I wish you the very best.

Answer 3

if you were diagnosed with these two things, is it possible you were miss diagnosed? I mean, with everything in the world lately... doctors and parents are quick to say this one has ADHD or that one has bipolar.... I think getting a second or third opinion is the case here.  Don't be afraid to talk to a counselor or even your new doctors. Tell them you want tests to make sure 120% you have what they say you do. As for your dreams, ever think that maybe it's too much medicine your body now has?  Anxiety over it causes your bi polar to kick in and the ADHD triggers the anxiety.  You sound like you know what you're talking about so i think everything you mentioned here, should be brought up to the docs. Do a copy and paste onto Word so you don't forget everything. As for your parents, how cruel to abuse you in way, shape or form. shame on them. We're all human and deserve to be treated properly.

good luck, best wishes.