I used to have 2 different types of recurring dreams between i think the ages of 4 and 17.
They both had the WEIRDEST feeling, and those feelings were never ever reproduced in ANY dream ever like these 2 recurring dreams.
I really can't explain them but the second dream I remember i used to sleep walk, go out in my hallway and stand there feeling weird, while sleeping, then I would walk over to my parents bedroom and stare at them and get a horrible feeling. I think I would cry, but my parents actually caught me doing this a few times. It was not scary but brought along a very daunting feeling. Other than that I don't remember much and I could never figure out the first dream.
So when I was 19 I was diagnosed with ADHD and Bipolar I.
So I never had these dreams again after the age of 17.
Lately my mind has slipped due to the constant mixed state episode.
So in the last month or so, certain things are triggering these feelings, especially the from the first dream. Like I was just reading something and read a word, AND BAM, i literally felt the dream and the daunting feeling hit me for a second, and then disappeared suddenly.
The triggers are anything. People, places, movies, tv, ANYTHING.
I don't get why this is happening, could it have to do with my mental illness?
Is this some type of PTSD or something bottled up?
My parents really didn't start emotionally abusing me till i was 16, so i know its not that.... its weird....
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