Ma two best friends dat ive ever had, honestly! its not fake friendship!
WE are completely the same in thoughts and actions. Nobody understands us but us and I would never trade it away and they told me the same thing. They said I tap into them and its like they can reveal anything (BULL) we met because we were outcast, they were rlly shy and so was 1 but i stopped being one, and i got tired of being one so i trained them into wat they are now, cool hyper girls, they use 2 b fat and now their skinny which changed them alot (im not fat, never was) even though they were fat (ppl said they were) i NEVER thought they were and i didnt think anything was wrong but now they changed and got prettier and ive changed 2 but only appearance.
Ma two best friends only need eachother, not me. Lately they got boyfriends and go on double dates and i dont have a boyfriend ( some things happened and now im afraid of guys so i panic if they ask me out and just act cool about it and turn them down, its not dat i cant get a guy)
im okay w/ dat but they NEVER even tell me about it. they dont call me anymore like they use 2 and talk for 2-3 hours. We use 2 hang out afterschool all the time and id even get in trouble for missing da bus on purpose just 2 hang out w/ them because i live kinda far from da school ( not in walking distance). Now after school I dont even see them, its like they leave so i wont stay after school w/ them or miss the bus on purpose, literally its like "lets go before she comes!" y r u being dat way just cuz i dont have a boyfrined? but watev im not a cokblocker i DONT CARE!. But wat pisses me off is dat when they go and hang out its not ALWAYS a double date. its just them, hanging out at da mall or walking around town. in school talking about wat they did infront of all our friends and im just faking a smile when really im like " wasnt i ur best friend" really jealousy and depression are overcoming me, this has been happening for a year now and im been friends for 5 years now. they were my first real friends and i was theirs... Y?! Y ARE THEY TREATING ME THIS WAY! NO MATTER WAT THEY DO I ALWAYS JUST SMILE! MAKE THEM LAUGH! IM DA FUN ONE! IM DA ONE WHO BROKE THEIR SHELL OF SHYNESS! I PRETTY MUCH CREATED THEM NOW! AND NOW THEY R UNCOINCIOUSLY SLOWLY THROWING ME AWAY?! DIS IS BULL!
its alot worse than wat ive said but its way 2 long so i shortend it up. WAT DA h**l DO I DO! weve never had a fight. and just because im feeling jealous im gonna ruin our friendship, rather just stay quiet, but I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE! im like da most composed cool person and even now im at ma limit....
wat do i do?
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