For the first time in 2 years..?

Question

I feel happy, but I feel guilty?

I've been suffering from depression for the last 2 years, and have currently "quit" school (this is my last year) and I still don't know whether I should go back.

I'm seeing a psychologist and I can go to TAFE next year to get into university, it's the same as school, just a bit longer. I don't want to go back to school because of the workload adds to my depression and anxiety, and I am constantly reminded everyday how many people hate me (i go to a christian school).

The problem is I am much happier when I'm not at school but I still feel guilty because my 4 siblings finished grade 12 and I might not?

Should I go back to school and sacrifice my happiness to advance into university faster?

Should I feel guilty?

Thanks for your time!

Answer 1

You should do what’s best for you. Not do it because your siblings did.

When you speak about school and the hate at school I am confused.   As a Christian school they should be promoting non-hate behaviour.  In most lands it’s now law that they stamp out hatred.  Get your parents to speak to the school as the school is failing in its duty of care to you. That's not saying you are totally innocent of stirring the pot a little.  So you will also have to pull you head in.  

I cant help but ask .  

Are you not using a few bad experiences as an excuse to avoid doing the hard work.  

I think go back to school. Deal with the hate issues, if there were things you did that contributed to the problem, get over that stuff and get stuck into the work with the aim of doing it.  

Not because your siblings did but because its what has to be done for you.   And remember.  Life is no easy ride.  Its a pain and it never goes where you want it to.  Yes you can blame others for the hard times or you can deal with them and step forward.  

What you do does not affect any of us here on line.  Its only you who wins when you put in the effort.  

Answer 2

going to school is overrated. if you can get the credits in any way without having to go through the social grinder of school, go for it. it's much better.

school is an institution that's meant to break you into going to a place you hate and doing things you dont like to do. it shows you can be a cog in a factory/office/etc.

if you get a diploma and can get into college then you don't have to worry about "school".

find what you like to do in life, art, something creative, handwork, sports... whatever, and try to find an apprenticeship in that area.

if you feel that you HAVE to go to school, consider changing to a regular school or any other school where you will not be judged and abused.  

Answer 3

There should be no reason whatsoever that makes you feel uncomfortable at school. People are always going to "hate" or "ridicule" you as well as me until the end of time, but try to turn the negative into positive. I understand that you are in a critical situation, and i've been there. The only thing that got me through was this simple thought "2 years from now i'm not going to even remember these people's names".

I hope this helps. and if it helps you any talk to a counselor at school, those people that make you feel uncomfortable have no right to treat you differently. take action :)

i wish you the best  

Answer 4

Have you talked to your parents about this?  Have you discussed with them how unhappy you are at this school?  Maybe if they knew, they would allow you to transfer to another school where you would fit in better and be a lot happier.