WELL last night i was feeling creative and i felt the urge to write. so i wrote from experience. its not really a poem. its just a random piece of writing.
It started with a joke. I remember that day so vividly. It was like i lived it many many tiems befor. I loved how you made me laugh and how uncontrollable it was. Whenever I look back on it i hear all of it. The way you just said everything. The way i would laugh at anything you said.It wasn't long befor that..until you gave me that feeling. It was like everytime i was with you it was only you and me.Then that day,May 18 to be exact, that day i found out you felt the same. It was like i've never felt . That day when i got home i couldnt stop thinking about you.It wasn't long after that day i felt i had to break it. Stupid me.But then i soon opend my eyes again and saw i mised you too much. and it was back in. it was the same like that for awhile. I moved on. But im sure you hadn't yet. Then came September. He broke my heart and i was left empty. Yet i knew i was in the same situation as him. He still loved her. I still loved you. from then on we never said a word to eachother. He had Completely moved on and so had i. I told you i still loved you. Your exact words were "Please stop hurting me" i knew how you felt. I had went through the exact thing with him. Then came another day that marked our history, Another day that would Lead the rest of everything. October 30. I ran away with joy. After that amazing moment. your friend came running up to me, "HE WANTS TO GO TO THE DANCE WITH YOU!" , myself in disbelife asked if it was for real, you came runing up and said it was, i ofcorse said yes.A while after that marked another day in our history, November 5, that day when i got you back. At that point i knew it would last forever. It came then the last day befor the holidays. You found out i would be half accros the world from you. It brought both of us tears. The last bell rang. a mad rush to get home for some hot chocolate went through the hallways. I ran to find you. When i finally did we just held eachother like we would never see eachother again 'i love you' you whispered in my ear. I was wordless.I said it back. Then we went our seprate ways. For the next 3 week it was hard being millions of miles away from him. Every thought of you made me cry.i came back and everything changed. You heard the rumors and you let them rub into you. Once again. We were broken. I went into complete drakness for a long 2 month. It was likeI came i came out of a car crash and died. But except my heart crashed, and it died. I couldn't handel it all. I did the unbelieveable, my grades were terrible and worst of all i did anything to hurt myself. I still have some bruises. It was horrible. My best friends did anything to help me. With time it was proved that they did. March 27, it was a cloudy day, but one of the best days in my life. You came back. Again i was so sure we would stay together forever, i always was. it was an amazing 3 months at first. this is when it started to crack again. May 27. "it started out with a kiss how did it end up like this" i remembered listening to those words over and over again. How could this happen again? The rumors. After that we never really did anything. You could've said that we were over. I was tired of the silence so i broke it with a note. You had promised you had write back but it was too late. Your brother found out. That's when it all stoped all over again.my soul was about to go into the darkness again. But i stopped myself. Right infront. Then i knew it was coming. June 20. I remember the exact time. I remember the exact words. "My brother found out about the notes. I have to end this. I told my parents i would ...... I'm sorry." it felt my heart had just dropped out of my chest. for a long second i couldnt breathe.you opend your arms once more and gave me a hug. It wasnt the same. I pushed you and walked away. I didnt cry just yet. Until they asked me if you did it. I broke down. I choked on every word you said. It echoed in my mind as they tried to calm me down 'it's okie hes a jerk. you'l find someone better' the thing was i knew i wouldn't I always knew we would stay together forever. the tears just kept falling. i could'nt control it. the words were stuck in my head. it was banging on the walls of my brain. I couldnt do much but just cry. Then came the last day of school. You weren't there. All day i had you on my mind. The bell rang and it was officially summer. As i walked into the hallway and out the doors last for the many times. i saw you. i didnt know what i should've done. so i just waited and acted along and said good bye to every one my face drenched with tears. Then i heard a voice call out to you 'COME HERE!' , but u never did. you waited for me up there. i stooed and watched as u rode away then i walked back into the hallways. tears started falling. from just 2 tears to a thousand. I regretted not saying goodbye. It's not over yet. I know we'll fix things soon. I 've told myself a million times that we would stay together forever. I dont doubt it one single bit. our love is like the wind you cant see it but you can feel it, you know its there. It's not over. We just started.
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