My VERY on and off relationship with a guy who's younger than....well, to say the least it confuses me so much, and hurts so much. I really care for the guy, and I think I might be in love with him. But at the same time, he constantly shows w/his actions that I'm not that important to him. Call me insecure, but he makes me feel insecure. He does not answer his phone when I call most of the time, he will then call me at a later time in the day. He prefers to text everything. We don't make plans to do anything ever really, and he's also very tight on money so i try not to make a big deal out of it, but he really never makes plans w/me, it's just always spontaneous spur of the moment things we do. When he breaks his promises or acts distant, I freak out!! (my insecurity kicks in, and inside i'm dieing for him to just hug me reassure me) I can't contain my emotions, and whenever I show how I'm really feeling and vent on him for not treating me w/value/consideration/respect, he does this passive aggressive thing and walks away. He says that i'm freaking out for no reason, that i'm crazy, he doesn't understand me. I do feel crazy because how he treats me is just so backwards from how my genuine/good relationships were in the past. He makes me feel lower than low because of what he doesn't do, the value placed on me is close to that of DIRT. Everyone, and especially himself, all take priority over me, and I am the one in his life that treats him the best and am the most caring. It's so sad how i'm dieing for just realness and he turns a blind eye. I don't know if it's absent minded inconsideration or if purposely treats me like "nothing of concern" on purpose. I feel like it's the latter because with others he is very accomadating, very considerate, prompt, and quick to reassure and be there for them. With me, i just honestly feel dead to him sometimes. What's wrong here? Is this a passive aggressive thing? He isn't straight out mean usually, it's more of a....i just won't acknowledge you at all thing... HELP
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