Ok, I dreamt about my "ex". Let me give you some background info:
When I was 15 I became involved with who I thought was my best guy friend. He had a girlfriend though. (who he was abusive to, i later found out.) Unfortunately, I was naive enough to believe that he was telling the truth that he only loved me, and would break up with her for me. This torture went on for about five months. His girlfriend found out, and soon it was over for them. In the meantime, I found out that everything he told me was a lie. It hurt me SO much that someone I trusted and cared about very much told me they loved me every day and didn't mean it. That has been a very tough time in my life, because I was so young and it was a crucial time. When I was almost 17, I started dating a very loving guy and I've been with him for a year and a half now. Very happy with that.
I've only had a few encounters with my "ex", if you could call him that, in the last couple years. One was about a week ago at a restaurant. Just saw him, I didn't speak to him or anything.
Well, finally to the dream, sorry!
Last night, I had a very disturbing dream:
I went to my ex's house because he asked me over to talk. Our discussion was vague but very hostile. He started pulling out guns and aiming them throughout the room. I got uncomfortable so I said I was leaving and headed for the door. He grabbed me, asking for one last hug and kiss. I tried to resist him, saying "I can't do this. I can't do this!" and I couldn't breathe. He became violent, started to scream, and threw me outside. I was lying on the ground looking up at him. He accused me of killing his mother (she committed suicide about 4 years ago) and killing him inside. I realized that I left my keys and phone inside so I attempted to get them, at which point he pushed me again, sending me hard onto the sidewalk. I woke up.
I woke up sweating, crying, and shaking violently. I have only woken up this way once to a dream about my parents dying.
What in the world could cause me to dream something like this?
It's really haunting me....
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