Thursday night I went over to a man's house (i'm 24, he's 30) to hangout and drink. I met him a 2months ago, and we've been talking on and off, and we've hungout once before (we'll call him BOB). I am very attracted to Bob, but because he's older, i'm also a little intimated and shy. Anyway, I had whiskey/redbull (which I poured), not much, about 2 shots worth of whiskey in my glass with the redbull that I finished, and to relax me more (and to have more of an alcohol induced effect I thought) I asked his roommate if he had any painkillers or something like zanex. He did. He said he had AMBIEN, that was prescribed for him because he recently had broken his foot and couldn't sleep so the doc prescribed him ambien. I took one pill of it. About 30minutes after....it must have kicked in because my MEMORY IS VERY CHOPPY. I remember joking around with Bob a bit, he gave me a massage, we kissed, then my memory from the night is very on and off. I couldn't stay awake, so I believe I was in and out of consciousness, and half asleep, either that, or it has just taken my memory from me! I know that Bob and I slept together, and I remember saying Yes to his advances, I remember bits and pieces of the night (h**l, I even started to trip out in the dark because I saw his bedposts coming alive, no joke, that's all I could focus on were the strange bedposts that seems to move, I do remember that) Other than that, however I don't know what happened. I can't believe we had s*x, and 3times he told me the next day. I'm really embarassed and kind of hurt, as to what happened that night, and I'm very surprised that Bob somewhat took advantage of me, it seems. I question whether my eyes were closed and if I was out cold for some of it, or if I was really awake and just can't remember????? I asked Bob and he said that my eyes were open and that I was just drowsy, but that it was okay because he had been drinking too. I'm not sure how to feel about this. Is this date rape? Was I taken advantage of? Did Ambien make me do something I wouldn't normally do and then take away the memory of it? The only thing that Bob could say when I tried to talk to him about it is: "You're an adult, take responsibilty for taking the drug, no one made you, and I did take advantage of you, so don't blame me" That's all he could say to me. I'm upset and confused by the whole thing now.(Bob and I did discuss "hooking up" a few days prior to the incident, so it was definitely on our minds when we hungout that night. But still, was it right how it happened? HELP!!
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