Long story short: I was just depressed, NO parental figures, so I hooked up with this guy. Really nice in the beginning but said the only way to make him happy in return was to give him s*x. Big mistake, but I fell for it. I guess I was vulnerable, but I'm not making excuses or forgiving myself.
Now I'm in this cycle of an abuse relationship where he is nice to me when he forces me do ALL KINDS of NASTY stuff to him. After a while he gets mad and hits me because the s*x isn't good enough and he wants more. Its at a point where its like 10 times a day and to tell the truth....its really painful both physically and mentally and I'm worn out. I've told him I'm going to the police twice but he beat me and said I can't do this to him. I always feel guilty afterwards, help??
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