I am 14 years old i and I am going into the high school soonand I hate the district that I live in the people suck so i want to move and my mom just fought yesterday about and asked if i wanted to go to cyber school and i just wanted to go to a differnt school but she said she'll think about it. Also I'm really bothered you know how it was just fathers day well I was abused by my little sisters biological dad when i was really little and I thought this guy was my dad but my mom was abused as well and he always had to go to jail and he made me miss a lot of school even kindergarden and I had to go to court when I was 5 but before I was born my mom had a husband and they had three kids (my half brothers) but then he got shot. My mom was horrified and became and alcoholic I never saw her that much when I was little I just saw police crying abuse and death. Then in fifth grade I was getting out of the habit of missing school but I missed the first day of school because my pap (from my sister' s dad side) died I then got depression and stayed inside all summer. Then in sixth grade my grammy (from my sister' s dad side) died I got more depressed my mom's parents told me that the guy who abused my wasnt my real dad that my dad was somewhere else and that I never met him my mom never wanted to tell me and i still never met him or heard about him. also in sixth grade my mom came home want night and my little sister came and said "mom stumbling up the steps" then I knew she was drunk. Then I heard a boom sound I had so many butterflies in my stomach i thought i was going to fly away then me and my older brother (who is like a dad to me) went in my moms room and she was lying on the floor I was sooo scared and I heard the police come and the ambulance so me and my sister went downstairs in my brothers room. Th e police said she was in a car wreck before that and their was a dent in her car. My mom went to the hospital and the neighbors were all standing out on their lawn watching my family go through h**l and across the street was my best friend. I actually went to school the next day and it seemed liked no one cared and I was thinking my mother is dead but when I got home I found out my mom was alright she had alcohol poisoning. then in seventh grade my dog died (angel) i couldn't deal with everything I been seeing the guidance counselor ever since the 6th grade. also i lost my best friend in 7th grade also i lost the best person ever in like fifth grade she went to another school And she was like my family I went over her house every weekend and and she took me on vacation and they paid for everything. I miss my best friends and family. And one of the best times I had when I felt hte most important is when I went out with the hottest guy ever in sixth grade everyone knew him which made them know me and he even went to a different school and we were the best couple I never been so happy and he was my first kiss and grind. Then I broke up with him because of certain reasons thats hard to explain. Also through everything I've gone through its hard to trust people. Also this year i was in my brothers ( the brother who is like a dad to me) room playing xbox then I saw a bag behind the tv i opened and there were pills and yellow bottles that said testorene and i read the paper that came with it and it said inject in the arm I started balling and no one was home then I told my mom the next day and she didnt seem suprisedi was scared and then the next night my mom came home drunk yelling at my brother and my brother who is nineteen started crying and saying " i swear to god on my dad's grave I didn't do anything" and my was being ridiculous although i didn't know who to believe it was very emotional i never heard my brother like that ever.and also my brothers girlfriend was there and my brother talked to me and said im sorry you had to see that I dont even know what to say. so i forgave and oh yea this is the day before easter! Oh yea it gets better I went to my grandparents house the next day for easter and after the dinner I go on the computer right next to the living room and my family was talking about steve my brother and steve wasnt there because my pap was furious at him at they were saying steve is going to die hes a bad kid blah blah blah and my heart broke (I've always looked up to steve) and my mom sees me crying and tells everyone to stop and and my other brothers come ands says everything is ok and i think deja vu. It was the worst thing easter ever and I hate every holiday even christmas my mom goes out on christmas eve and she comes home drunk and get horrible presents for me on christmas. Phew alot of typing trust me alot more horrible things happened like my brother has heart disease, I ran away before, I tried to comit suicide, a lot of pain was endured, got teased and wayyyyyyy more and some howi still wake up each morning and keep moving. THE QUESTION IS SO I UNDERSTAND WHAT IS YOUR LIFE LIKE? WHAT SHOULD I DO TO IMPROVE MY LIFE????????!!!!!!!!!?????????
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