Hate my life (thinking about cutting) help?

Question

well i hate goinng to my current school im a loner & everyone talks about me because i haevnt been at school for 2 weeks. my mum gets mad at me & my whole family says that my dad has spent a lot of money on this school. my mum says that my dad cant even buy a new pair of clothes which makes me feel really bad which makes it worse. they only think about themselves, they think its so easy to just go back to school for the other 2 months but it really isnt for me. & right now i dont care whether have scars or not because i jsut feel like cutting myself, i cry everday...... i wish i was dead, i know i will regret cutting myself if i do but right now i dont care. my mum is the main cause for this, she says " you can feed yourself im not cooking for you", "this isn't your room i can stay in here if i want to", "your dad spent a lot of money & you dont even care", "your going to school tomorow or i'll call the police", "im going to change the computer password", "dont watch tv i bought it so i can do whatever i want with it". i cant take it anymore, i hate my life so much :{

please dont post any mean comments coz this is really hard for me.

& i know this is nothing compared to children that have lost their parents but this is also bad, maybe not as bad but still.

Answer 1

Dear: Not every couple are cut out to be parents. It sounds like yours are laying a heavy guilt trip on you instead of giving you the love and support you deserve as their child. And it's wrong.

You need to find people (family, friends, school counselors) who will support you and build up your support network. Don't be afraid to ask for help.

God bless.

Just checking back in. Glad to see you got some supportive answers from people who've been there. It's good that in the answers community there are people that do care, and are giving you good advice like finding other outlets for your feelings. I am sending you a little prayer right now -but I hope you do take my advice and find some good people in your life who will support you through this difficult time. You have to believe that there are people who love you and want what's best for you -probably even your parents in their own way (although it's difficult to reconcile right now, I bet).

Take care.

Answer 2

look, go to school,your dad spent enough. Get and education, try your hardest, trust me it will pay of. The other kids are just distractions, go to school, come home, dont cut your self becase it's wasted blood tthat your fortunate to have. When you finish school, it willl all come back. i'm 16, i probibaly know best.

Answer 3

-huggles-

Lots of people are going through the same kind of feelings you are specifically at the moment, which can be rough and discouraging. There's no doubt in my mind that many people have dysfunctional families or really, just annoying parents.

You hate it right now, but you're going to get over it since you'll realize it's not all that bad after this passes. I suppose being an insensitive male I would be stereotyping women by saying they shovel the greater load of emotional problems. -shrugs- I don't think that's off the mark, though. Women feel more things with more intensity, I'm sure.

Alright, if you didn't bottle it up and just let it out on what you truly feel, you'd be a lot better off. If I ever had a problem with my parents, I'd tell them straight up. You have to take a stand sometime so your mother stops being such a beetch. No offense. Some people just need to be told - even by their own kid.

If you hate going to your current school and your dad is whining about the costs of going there, maybe you could convince him that he'd saev money if you went to a school that cost less. Also, you could share your pessimism about being a loner with no friends if you want. Not to be mean but school just started.

Just be open.

Answer 4

you dont want to start cutting.Seriously.You do it ONCE and you get hooked.No matter who you are you get hooked to it.There is no reason to do it.Go to church.It will help.Seriously.church is now my favorite thing for being 12.And I totally quit because of Jesus and i thought he wouldnt want me to be doing this,and i dont want to disappoint Him.

Answer 5

i know what you mean and the emotions your feeling.  i can't imagine how your "home" would feel at the moment because homes are supposed to be a place where you feel comfortable and not a place where you have to feel worthless and not loved and constantly on edge.  you shouldnt have to put up with this emotional abuse because it's not healthy and it shouldnt make you feel like cutting.  please dont, like you said your going to regret it - can you talk to anyone you know about this, maybe someone on a helpline?  im sorry i cant be much more help but i dont know ny more details about your current situation but about the friends thing can you try and talk to some people that are in your classes?  try and take up a hobbie to make you stronger and take your mind off things, maybe it's just finding something your interested in and like doing, M

Answer 6

Your life doesn't sound all that bad, however your reaction to the situation is the problem, and this falls upon your parents mostly.

I had a very very hard time in school, but I had supportive parents as well.

Firstly, find someone you can talk to, try a school staff member, or a hotline for teenagers. You need to talk with someone and work through this.

As for the urge to cut, don't do it, I am a nurse now and I have scars on my wrists from cutting, I regret them daily. Instead, try replacing the urge with something else, like reading, writing, swimming ect.

Something to get your mind off of it.  

Answer 7

It is absolutely not "pathetic" to have urges to harm yourself, some people get those feelings many people don't.  But remember they scar mentally and physically, and will not help your situation.

I found the best way to fight those feelings is to view it like an addict needing drugs (because I've self-injured and am also a recovering addict).  Injuring yourself is like a quick fix and it helps to view at as a negatively life altering problem that will only get worse, leave you scarred and eventually hospitalized.  Please don't start because it's hard to stop once it starts.  You've got a lot on your plate right now, but try to face those problems, I know it's hard, rather then running away to a negative activity.  Bless you and best of luck to you.

Answer 8

Dude.. you have to go to school. High school was s***. I hated it. I dropped out and got my GED because immature high school kids + abusive boyfriend gets you to a point where you just can't take it anymore. But, honestly, I'll never regret that because that GED has helped me further my education and get away from all the things that were seriously making me unstable. BUT...that was high school. And I'm assuming you're talking about college being that you said you dad already paid for it. Well, the first time I went to college, I only lasted for about a month because of all the stress again. I stopped going to school for a while, but then realized "Hey, I can't do anything worth s*** if I don't get some kind of profession". Unfortunately, in this life, you have to have money to even survive. You need somewhere to live and you need food. None of that's free (honestly, I'm surprised breathing is still free). But, it was like a huge reality check for me. When my mother isn't able to be around anymore, I'm on my own.. So, I went back to a different school for my Pharmacy Tech diploma and have been doing very well with it thus far. I understand what it's like, trust me. It's not easy, and people suck and just make it worse. I, too, constantly thought people were always talking about me behind my back. But you can't let it get to you. F*** them and what they think/say. As for your parents, honestly, if you depend on the computer and TV and your mother's cooking that much that it makes you so depressed, then (if not for them or for yourself), that's why you need to go to school. Soon enough, you'll have a job, and be able to afford all of those things on your own. And no one will be able to tell you they're going to change the password, because it'll be your computer. Just tough it out...I mean, you have to...there's nothing else you can really do. I know what it's like to want to just quit, but not being able to, so you resort to cutting and s*** like that, instead. You can talk to me about that, by the way, I have a huge problem with it myself, but what's funny about me is that I can give others great advice even though I can't help myself very much. Seriously. If you need to talk send me a message or ask for my AIM or something. I'll be happy to talk to you.

Answer 9

Hmm... sounds like you're under a lot of pressure, and cutting won't release much of it. It really just delays it.

My best suggestion is to calmly and maturely tell your mom that you're having some very depressing thoughts because of the pressure put on you about school. Let her know you have all the intentions of doing your best to succeed and make them proud, but it's difficult to focus in the right direction with so much weight being put on your shoulders.

Hopefully she'll understand if you say it with calm honesty. If that doesn't work... then just be sure you cut on thicker skin and don't go deep. Just enough to feel some pain and get some relief.

Answer 10

1. Change schools.

2. Talk about them.

3. Go TO School, then they wouldn't talk about you.

4. If he spent alot of money on this, therefore, you're being incredibly ungrateful.

5. Only really pathetic people self harm, so don't do it.

6. you can feed yourself im not cooking for you" ( Learn to cook? )

7. your going to school tomorow or i'll call the police. ( Your Parents can be fined, or even sent to Prison if you don't go, so why not grow up? )

Answer 11

stick it out.

toughen up.

it may seem hard but you have to.

if it's only for two months then try.

your mum sounds like a *****.

just remember your better than that.

listen to some music.

try and find a song that gives you a calm feel.

if your feeling the pressure i find music gives me such a better feeling.

try these bands

be open minded about all music.

Underoath

Destroy The Runner

Emery

Bring Me the Horizon

Anberlin

These bands make amazing music.

Emery makes such a good connection in their lyrics.

Listen you will like.

Hope you feel better. :)

Answer 12

watch charlie the unicorn on youtube. trust me it'll make you feel better :]

Answer 13

Hey, believe it or not a lot of people feel like this. i did. In school people would spread a lot of nasty rumors and called me a s**t and all that stuff which wasnt true. i felt terrible, i wouldnt go to school and yeah people started talking, i eventually dropped out. while all that was going on, my home life wasnt that great either. my mom would tell me that she wished i would move out, that she didnt love me, im stupid, no one will love me because of the way i am, and so much other hurtful things. my dad would always say im fat and laugh at everything i had to say. I have been depressed for a few years and around this time i took it to another level. i was suicidal and i ended up in a stay in hospital. they put you on meds and make you stay there until you get better.

right now, im off the meds. i dont believe meds can help. im still depressed but my relationship with my mom is better, my dad not so much. i go to a community college and starting to get my life back together. even though i still feel S****y and think about death, im still here. i have scars to remind me of the times when i was feeling the worst, so dont cut yourself, the memories will just come back to get you, and it will only get you more depressed. take care.

Answer 14

Wisdom comes with trying to see things from all sorts of view - not just your own.  Parents do what they think is best for you, and if you don;t open up and explain yourself coherently and honestly to them, how can they know what they do is harming you?

Cutting yourself is not an answer - it is a distraction.  There are healthier distractions - such as writing in diaries or losing oneself in a creative artistic process, either through music or painting or anything creative.  who knows, you may find yourself extremely happy with your work, but even if you hate it, you can always destroy the work instead of yourself.

This is why we build sand castles - to destroy them.

Answer 15

Please go see your school counselor, if your school has one.  I don't know how private schools work but I think they have to provide some form of mental support for students who need it..  Your parents are very emotionally abusive and make you feel like you should punish yourself.  You need to see a counselor to try to work out these problems, or the cutting won't end.  Try finding something that releases your pain and anger in a healthy way.  Exercise, art, dance, music, and writing are all good ways to cope that don't hurt you.  I carry around a notebook in my purse all the time so that I can write when I need to, and I practice deep breathing and relaxation exercises I learned in therapy to help stop self harmful activities or panic attacks.  

Also, Don't compare yourself to other people with other problems.  I used to do that too, and it only made myself feel more guilty and unimportant.  Your problem is important and very real to you, it still matters, and hurts.  Take care of yourself.

Answer 16

You need to get over yourself.  This isn't a nasty comment, it's a reality check.  Ok, your family/whatever, they shouldn't speak to you like that - But let's face it, money is easy to spend and hard to get.  So if your father has spent money for you to have a good education and you're blowing it - How do you think he feels?  At least you've been given that chance.  What about people who want to go to school and don't get the chance?  There's nothing in the world that stops people getting friends - Except themselves.  So get on top of it.  Staying out of school isn't going to do you any good.  If will get your parents and yourself in trouble - And then you actually might want to 'hurt yourself'.  I can't stand it when I see people who've 'cut themselves' - Get a bloody grip.  For God's sake.  If you wanted to kill yourself you would have done all ready - And how do you think your family would feel then?  If there's only 2 months of school left - Get your **** back there and learn something!  Go on into further education, get yourself a job because at the moment it seems like you have too much time to waste on the internet with nothing better to do than ask for peoples sympathy.  

You're the only person that can change everything that's wrong with your life.  Y'know why?  Because the only thing that's wrong with it is you.  The other people in school probably aren'tt speaking about you behond your back, let's face it, why would they?  I'm sure they have better things to do, like get on with their work and be around their friends.  Friends?  You need them.  Life isn't easy, and you're not going to get anywhere without them.  Another thing, do you think you're going to make any by sitting in the house for 2 weeks?  Pathetic.

Get out there and change youself.  It's only life, 6 billion people cope with it everyday, most of whom have a much harder one than you appear to have.