Have I fallen into a long term drug withdrawal?

Question

I will give you a little history on the past few months of my life.

I go to raves, not as much as I use to. I went to a rave on April 20, 2008 and took ecstasy and adderall. I found out the ecstasy was loaded with meth, I felt brain dead for half of the night. I didn't have the energy to talk and I didn't want to talk, and I don't remember half of the night that I felt braindead. I've been doing this for the past 3 years, I have taken a lot of ecstasy, but I have not experienced the way I am feeling today, ever.

After that experience I have not taken ecstasy or any drugs.

Ever since than I have been feeling in a trance, I don't feel fully awake, I feel zoned out for most of the day, I feel zoned out just staring at the screen right now. When I look around at the walls, the objects around me, I don't know if I am truly alive or awake, I feel numb to what I am looking at.

I have been taking ecstasy for the past 3 years, in the beginning I hardly used it, then I got heavily into it using it every weekend, and then slowly near the end up until April 20th, I have been slowly taking less quantities and taking it less in every month. In hopes that would help whatever kind of long term withdrawal I would have from it.

So I'm not sure if it was from what I took on April 20th that made me how I've been feeling the past couple of months, or if because I'm taking it less and less my brain is detoxing or trying to get back to normal?

Any advice or anyone who has experienced this, please help!

Thank you.

Answer 1

Wait what? First, you said you haven't taken any drugs after that, and then you said you've been continually taking ecstasy less and less to detox. I'll assume the latter is true.

1st off, there are no W/Ds from ecstasy, so there is no need to detox.

2nd, Ecstasy has a hangover, and if you are constantly taking it (even decreasing amounts) then you are also getting constant hangovers, which might explain why you always feel "zoned out" (E hangovers make you feel like that). E hangovers last about a week, so if you stop, wait a week before coming to conclusions.

Oh, and if you meant that you were taking adderall or meth less and less, those have hangovers as well, so you still might want to stop for a while.

If you feel just plain depressed all the time for no reason, you are definitely going through a constant hangover.

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