I want to go in for a breast enlargement due to having undeveloped b*****s. It would make a huge difference to my confidence and mean I could buy clothes and underwear to fit me, and make me look like a normal woman. But I am a very ultra-sensitive kind of person who suffers from panic disorder, and psychosis. I find the idea of 'going under' petrifying. Have you done it? What's it like? I have taken sedatives before like diazepam and its a nice feeling, but imagine myself being panicked by the feeling of being 'sucked down,' into darkness with proper anaeasthesia. What if if I have a terrible panic attack and I cannot shout out? What if I wakeup and the unfamiliar surroundings and intellectual approach of doctors etc frightens me? And then people might start getting mad at me or being telling me 'there's nothing to be scared of, be quiet.' What if I start hallucinating or something because I can't wake up properly or focus??
As you can tell I am pooing myself, because I really do get such panic attacks like I've described in real life, and really do get hallucinations.
Tags: