Have you ever been stuck in a rough area and there was no immediate way for you to permanently leave ?

Question

ive suffered a horrific life, im 30 now, missed out on everything so far - education- relationships.....never happened.

ive missed out all my life on happiness, goals, friendships, relationships, work, education, lifestyles..

never achieved any of it because ive suffered such a miserable life of trauma, let downs, rejection, bullying ~( physical and mental ) - abuse, assaults, attacks, time in a psychiatric hospital, time in jail....a criminal record...a mental health record etc...

today ive lived on my own since 2005 in a small messy flat without anybody....i have no social support network exceptt my mother and 1 internet friend.....my mother who is aging and cannot do the things she used to.

i live on disability, i own nothing except a few books and an old dusty computer.

iam diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and ptsd.

im literally starting from zero in life because ive missed out badly, at the moment im waiting for a psychotherapist.

i dont live in the roughest area in the world but there are quite a few no hopers, gangs of rowdy youths who act intimidating.....rowdy noisy types....alchoholics...trouble causers....anti social types etc.

people i wouldnt choose to live around or even choose to shht on.

i live in a one bedroom apartment on disability, surrounded by it.

i keep myself to myself, mind my own business, but the neighbours behaviour is very intrusive ' at times '

noisy, arguing, shouting, banging, loud techno music, fast loud cars etc, dogs barking etc..

nobody is bothering me personally but it bothers me to live round here , i feel intimidated and insecure.

and worst of all, theres no easy way for me to get away , move out right now.

my long term plans and ambitions in life are to still ; get a good paying job in computers.....then to move from england permenantly.....or to move to a quiet coastal place , meet a partner and to live in peace.

but prefabally to emigrate abroad.

but in my circumstances....i have so much to work on, and i find it so depressing knowing it will take time to achieve my goals and move away..

you cant just move away to somewhere nice without money or prospects or anything behind you......can you ?

and for me obviously it will take time.

meanwhile how am i going to survive the loud rowdy chaos round here that i dont want nothing to do with ?

i live on disability and dont have many porsessions.

have you ever made it out of situation like this ?

please i would appreciate useful strategies and answers because this situation is driving me mad just thinking about it.

Answer 1

im sorry to hear all them bad things may god bless you,sounds like you have been to h**l and back ,its kinda familiar with me and my family in different ways though just alot at one time,if you dont like where you live ,look around for apartments or a room for rent something you can afford in a nice area that you like,disability should help you  no?

Answer 2

I live in a basement...my crazy old grandmother owns the house my family lives in and she doesn't like it when we go upstairs. I know what you are going through and you are not alone

Answer 3

find God. he solves all my problems! im praying for you. God bless!

Answer 4

That's tough, i know for a fact that people with mental health problems don't get the support, advice of help they need to get themselves out of a situation, they are so often ignored by the 'so called' professionals who mainly just see their position as a mere job that brings in the pay cheque at the end of the week.

The way the world is, 'as i see it' is that there just isn't enough caring, true and genuine people to go round, then there are those that do get care and really don't appreciate it, but that's another story.

What you need is to try and get out and meet the right people, if not only to help lead you in the right direction but for sanity's sake... You'll feel a whole lot better for it.

Try and join some clubs, a gym perhaps, or a college course that might interest you and keep your mind from depressive thoughts.

You'll get there in the end if you persevere.

Good Luck!.. You'll come through.....