some times when I close my eye's i see these eye's and they blink. All sorts of evil faces.....where the heck can a mind come up with this? I mean such demonic faces, how does the mind just get sick and create these image's? I mean these eye's blink... My sickness even has a sense of humor. When I was getting dental work done showing my teeth in x-rays, a low thought said I wish I could show them my teeth. I almost started to laugh and I could not help it. With a image scaring the doctors with these demonic teeth.There has been other signs of humor in this illness, sarcastic humor. What can create humor, doesn't humor need intelligence?
I always say I am possessed, because of what happens at the church, getting wiped around and stuff. My mental illness is quite irritated to prayers and worship. The shrink says he has never heard of a sickness communicate with prayer as I talk about. If a pastor ever says those that need spiritual healing over the congregation in a prayer, I put up quite a show with my body and my head. They once prayed this prayer and I was forced to sit down because my head went in a Mad scream back and forth NO way. I was not screaming but noices were coming from me....I guess if you were taken like that you would make a noise as well.
so have anyone ever heard of a mental illness like this? Not to mention I have 1000's of voices. The only reason I keep my sanity I believe is because I seek after God and I know in my heart I will be free.
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