So my family consists of my wonderful mother and beautiful younger sister. They are the only ones I really love in this world. Together we have gone through so much and it has made us closer than ever. My mom is the best. We came to the US when I was an infant. She didn't know any english or have any family here. Now, she is a hygienist, a US citizen, owns a home, and whatnot. I really admire her so much. Since she is a single mother she works a lot. This started last week. I've been think of what would happen is she dies. What would be of my sister and me? I used to believe in God and I was sure that He would know that I am a good person and would not let my mother die soon. But now I'm an atheist. I've realized that I don't have "security" for my mother. She could die anytime. This has really affected me. I've been having panic attacks at school and work everyday. The pain is so horrible that crying doesn't help. I don't want to feel this way anymore. I cannot tell her what is going on because it will devastate her. She is already dealing with my sisters severe despression. What can I do?
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