Now , I come from a rather conservative family . We rarely went to see doctor and I've only went to a doctor for less than 20 times in my whole 16 years of life .I've been someone whom my class always label as "introvert" and "freak" whichever class I'm in .I am easily distracted and frustrated by sound : I prefer to be alone and in total silence .But I never mind those all , at least I'm good in sciences ,which is why I'm studying overseas on a scholarship now .But now , I am doing this project on Asperger's syndrome . I find out that I actually acquire some of the symptoms , eg:
• Inflexible insistence on certain rituals or routines
• Insists on sameness and becomes distressed when routines or rituals are changed
• Clumsy and uncoordinated motor movements
• Heightened sensitivity -- tends to be distressed by loud noises, bright lights, or strong tastes or textures
• Restricted and repetitive behavior
• Abnormally intense preoccupation with certain activities or areas of interest (i.e. stamps, coins, flags, cars, or airplanes)
• Often adopts a very formal tone and use of language, not using shortenings or slang
• Language regression - loses previously acquired ability to say certain words or sentences
• Struggles with nonverbal communicative behaviors such as eye-to-eye gaze, facial expression, body postures, and gestures to regulate social interaction
• Fails to develop peer relationships appropriate to developmental level
• Doesn’t often seek out interactions and prefers to play alone
• Appears unaware of others' emotions
• Often does not follow subtle humor, and may misinterpret sarcasm and jokes as literal and ill-intended
That's 14 out of 21... I don't want to call my parents .I don't want to worry them .I also can't consult my guardian : she'll call my parents first and foremost .I can;t see a psychologist :I don;t have the money to .I am alone in a foreign country , finding out that "maybe" something was really wrong with me .. I am hoping now , any kind soul out there would know what I could do now ... Maybe you're a psychologist who can help me , tell me whether I should be alarmed or not ,or someone with experience or knowledge about this ..ANyway , please , I'm distressed about this now ..Please help ..
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