Help me find my way out of this mess?

Question

My Life is a mess. I am a straight male of 36 years. I have been masturbating for 22 years since I was 14. It started out with simple adult stories. I remember sneaking up my elder brother's room and reading some novels with mature content when no one was at home. Gradually I started reading p*o*r*n by the age of 19 when I was in college. There was this stack of p*o*r*n with the other guys. Then I was buying the p*o*r*n magazines myself when I was 25. Then at 30 I discovered the internet and at 32 I started surfing hardcore p*o*r*n sites off and on.

I want to not be so crazy about p*o*r*n. I don't get turned on by any p*o*r*n. It has to be the best p*o*r*n. Now every night I waste hours on the net visiting p*o*r*n erotica story sites.

I am sick of doing this. I hate myself.

With girls I am always gentle. I make friends very easily. But in the last 22 years I have been close only with 4 girls. And never got closer than some fooling around. My last girl friend encouraged me a lot. But I don't get really turned on by s*x. If you are really turned on one should be having more fun I guess. My erection is there. When she was giving me a hand job even though it was hard I didn't get any seminal ejaculation. and there is nothing wrong with her. She has the perfect figure, face etc. I just did not find even those perfect naked b*****s hot enough or as hot as the p*o*r*n stories.

I guess that is why she left me and says now "There was nothing between us"

I hate myself. I feel I am such a creep inside. I don't want to waste time reading p*o*r*n at night. I would rather sleep more.

How can I get rid of this p*o*r*n addiction? Please help by giving useful advice.

Answer 1

ok, get a p**n blocker on ur pc, set a password that you can't remember at all. and you're set, and delete everything saved on your computer, and burn the books, it might be painful, so have a close friend do it while your at work and not around

Answer 2

You should talk to a counselor or psychiatrist.  You have some issues that only a professional can help you with.  

Answer 3

get some serious help

like a shrink or something

also i know this sounds kinda weird but hypnotizing can help too

i was deathly afraid of our lake and that helped and i was allergic to milk and it helped there as well

Answer 4

your obsessed with having the s*x you see in videos! cut off your sources with blockers and c**p like that.

Answer 5

As with anything that some one is addicted to, be it cigarettes, food, alcohol, drugs, or in your case p**n, one must really want to give it up!

If you truly wish to stop viewing p**n, you will!

Yes, I know, it's easier said then done, but you have to change your mind set! Every time you get the urge to surf up some p**n, ask yourself if that's what you really want to do! Simply pausing for a moment and asking yourself this may give you just enough time to distract you away from it!

Another option is to get involved in some activities that take you away from where you generally find your p**n. There is no p**n in a bowling alley or church social groups or community activity centers!

You could always use the "Parental Controls" on your computer to forbid you from going to websites that are p**n related! Have a friend set the password for you so you do not know what it is.

What ever you do, do not let yourself get depressed! Depression will just make you run back to the p**n so you can feel better, albeit momentarily, then you will feel even worse for having back slided! If you feel depressed, hit the gym and work out, this will release some "feel good" hormones in your body and make you feel WAY better, plus there is also the added benefit of getting in shape!

Above all, it's going to take some will power on your part, and don't expect it to be easy at first! You will gain more strength and confedence in yourself as the days go by where you have some degree of success!

The best of luck to you!