Help me i almost committed suicide this morning?

Question

ok so i feel pretty pathetic to have to tell my story on a website because i need help but I'm gonna do it anyway & see what happens, ok so i have been depressed for the past 5 years i was depressed about my weight like for 4 years and i started to starve myself to loose weight and once i actually lost the weight i felt happy for the very first time because i had gone from a size11-0 i mean wow right but then i started having problems at school because i never had any friends and it was really difficult for me and i have never felt like i fit in anywhere i always feel like I'm different even in my own family sometimes and school for me is only like 2 weeks in so far and i have already missed 2 days(not including today) because i just don't want to face my problems and having to be alone at school and have people be mean to me but i know its affecting my school work and i can tell my mom is so disappointed in me because i miss school all the time and i want to stop but its just so hard and idk what to do anymore i really don't this morning i was really depressed i got some pills i found i think they were Excedrin and i was about to take them because i wanted an overdose but i just couldn't do it because i was scared and i know i need help but idk how to get it :(

btw im 14 years old

Answer 1

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Answer 2

You have a school counselor. Don't waste any time, go talk to her TODAY and if she can't help you she/he can find someone who can.Committing suicide is only going to cause a lot of problems for the people who care about you. Ending  your life only starts the problems. All Excedrin will do is mess  up your liver and stomach for a week or so. Please seek help from a professional.  

Answer 3

Sweetie. Your mom would be so much more dissapointed if she never had the chance to help you. Go to her and tell her what you just told us and let her help you and get you help. Perhaps you can start fresh at a new school, or see a counselor to help you cope with the feelings you have about not fitting in.

You are at an age where things/friends/cliques/life can change in a heartbeat.

You can get through this, just make sure your mom is at your side. She loves you.

Answer 4

You are in the worst years of your life. High school is really difficult. There's pressure to be popular, have friends, and have a relationship.

I ended up dropping out of school. It wasn't until I dropped out that I realized how easy school can be. All I had to do was simply say "Hi" to a peer of mine. That was all.

Life can be as complicated as you want to make it. People are as scared of you as you are of them. Break the ice, say "hi" to someone in your class. Ask them simple questions like "How you doing today". Be friendly, but don't be too thirsty for approval from other people. Just have regular conversations. I know you might say "It's not easier than it sounds" but IT IS!

Stop thinking about what you hate out of life. Start thinking about what you WANT in life. Start thinking about what you already HAVE! it might be the eyes to read this text. If you have access to the internet, then that means you're better off than 1/5th of the world, other third world countries. Dying of poverty... they would wish to have an education like we have in the U.S., or other fortunate countries.

Start thinking about good things in life, and good things will manifest, I guarantee.

Answer 5

good luck..  this is life..

everyone probably have to been through this..

everyone have to face it..

you might find yourself alone but to me alone is enough..

i don't have friends too xD.. i meant real friends..

they ain't that important actually.. you have your mom disappointed in you.. which is a good thing.. its show your mom is caring for you.. you have your mom at least..

you mention about your weight..

don't worry about it.. a kind heart wont be affected by your appearance.

stay happy.. no matter what you alway have yourself.. be strong..accept the fact that this is life and everyone is facing it too.. you got lot more to go.. good luck 14year old kid.. xD

Answer 6

im really sorry that you are having this problem, but i am also depressed. i am currently undergoing outpatient therapy for it. i cant even go to school, let alone tell my friends wuts wrong with me. i pray you feel better. seeing therapists ans psychiatrists isnt fun, but it help. im on alot of meds as well.

just know that a girl who is 16 feels the same way. you arent alone.

xoxo

adrian :]

Answer 7

Okay, now you get a lecture. First of all, don't ever think of suicide. The problems that you have now, will not be problems a few years down the road. Your mom is probably disappointed because she knows what you're capable of, and probably wonders what she might have done wrong (I'm a mom).

You really have to realize that not everyone is a size 0. You don't have to be perfect. You have to like who you are and see the good in yourself before others do.

Don't think twice about what people think of you. Who cares? If they don't like what they see...I have to say this "F*** them!"

You are who you are, and your life is a gift. Lighten up chickie!!!

Be Safe and Be YOU!

Answer 8

Oh wow. I really dont know what to answer to this. I've seen so much people go through this so many times. It makes you stop and wonder how that person feels. Recently my friend also went through a same thing. Luckily she got therapy form phsyciatrist and other therapist. hmm. Do you ever think why you are doing this? . is it to impress your family., gain popularity at school or build your self esteem. for example loosing weight. Many people do it to make other people happy, impressing a guy or even just plainly feeling good about yourself. About friends, WHy don't you try to talk to people who have the same interest as you , or even just pop up a convo .. an ddont you ever think about commiting suicide. cuz the world needs someone who can stand up to their problems rather then givng in. Trust me.

I wish all the best with life.  

Answer 9

Aww honey I was depressed when I was that age, too. It gets better, you're just going through a lot of emotional and physical changes and it's a lot to deal with, trust me. I'm 23 now and it get so much better after you get through the c**p. Congratulations for losing weight! That's a tough thing to overcome. You should be proud of yourself. =)

I recommend just trying to relax. Put on a funny movie or TV show and just let you mind relax and keep reminding yourself that it's not as bad as it seems.

I was in your position and now I'm happier than ever. Just stay positive.

Answer 10

My dear friend, is that the only solution for your problem. If this is the only solution than almost all the healthy people had to commit suicide. Take it easy. Slow and study wins the race. Putting on weight is a lot easier than loosing it. It is a long process. (Most of the men do like healthy ladies).

That's not an excuse but the point is there are so many things in your life. You have to go to school and make friends who does not feel bad in taking to you. They like you as you are. And I don't think friends are more important than studies.  Give more time to your mind and heart which will help you to  gain strength and courage to face any problem. Suicide is not an option. Take care.  

Answer 11

hey don't ever try or even to think about it again!!! I don't also want to be alone so i know that feeling. Anyway you're still young don't make all things more complicated. About your family, just try to lessen the gap between you and them. you can always trust them. Why don't you ask help with your brother or sister or an aunt. I know you'll find someone who'd be willing to be a friend even one. Just go back to school and fix your academics... Why don't you talk to one of your classmates who you think is nice and try to stay with him or her for a while so you'll get along. As for the mean guys, don't mind them (",). Youl'l be different with other people if it will be your thinking. Try to reach out and don't be afraid...

Answer 12

Life is hard. Life is suffering. Understand it and accept it.

Hang in there, keep busy, study hard.

Learn to play the guitar, and join or start a band ... you'll eventually find that being "different" is a blessing.

Answer 13

Many of us (including myself) feel like they don't fit in and feel like hiding. After suffering through high school and at work, I offer the following advice.

I didn't really fit in at college, but I had really strong goals. That goal-oriented lifestyle really put other people's opinions in proper perspective...they were like ants to me...I really couldn't have cared less. I just worked my butt off doing what I needed to do. Eventually, I developed a few relationships in which I could have some fun.

Then I graduated and started working. The work environment is eight hours of social/political strain. Again, I worked hard, but in the work world, that doesn't matter much. So I began suffering again.

I thought "God! I'm stuck! Since I have to work, I have to deal with these toxic people!" So I tried to develop thick skin, tried to hang out with people, etc. It helped a bit.

But then, I listened to the Dave Ramsey show. He planted the idea of getting financially free in my head. If I became financially free, I don't have to live in this current corporate existence 8 hours/day. So, after a very intense work/save period, I achieved some financial freedom. And I was able to change my environment. Further, I know that the more free I become, the less **** I have to take from others.

So with that perspective, the toxic people around are tolerable...sort of laughable.

Now you will always need a basic ability to handle toxic people. Read Toxic People for that. But most importantly, be yourself. Once you are in the habit of being yourself, you will be at peace.

But more importantly, acknowledge that if you don't get serious about getting financially free, you will have to deal with toxic people for the rest of your life.

Use the pain of your current existence to remind you of how important it is to get in control of your life. You actually did that (albeit in a very unhealthy way) when you controlled your weight. You did that in an unhealthy way because you were too concerned with other people's opinions. Now control your life in a healthy way because you are only concerned with the quality of your life.

Wayne Dyer, "What other’s think of you is really none of your business."