i dont know what to do anymore.
at the middle of last year i felt so fat. so i started to starve for the entire day and binge towards the end. i lost about 5 pounds doing so. i'm about 107 now and im 5'0.
this summer has been so hard. ive been going through periods of 2-3 days where i'll completely starve myself to 200 cals a day, and then give in and change my mind at the last minute.
i dont know what to do. im thinking of starving myself today. i have no choice. all i see is fat. i dont want to be this way. i want to be normal. i want to feel pretty. the only thing keeping me from becoming completely anorexic is that i dont want to lose my "girly figure."
i cant tell anyone. my parents dont understand and will just laugh at me like they always do. my friends arent supportive at all. i cant go to a clinic. we cant afford anything like that.
ive tried everything. ive watched videos, looked through all the consequences, looked at lists of people that die from it. but nothing can stop it.
please. someone help me. has anyone been through this?
i dont want to die.
im only 15.
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