Help me please its urgent?

Question

just so you know im a 14 year old girl and my friend is a 14 year old guy. okay my friend is always asking me if im okay and everything. he knows i used to be anorexic and that i used to cut myself. the problem is, i still cut and im still anorexic. he also doesnt know that i am suicidal. he doesnt know that i wish i would just die and i dont want to live anymore and that i am scared im not going to able to control myself and take my life one day. i want to tell him this but idk. he tells me he cares about me and that i can tell him anything, but i dont know how to say it. he also knows i have problems at home, but he doesnt know my mom tells me she wished i was never born and im a psychotic ***** and i should be in foster care. i feel like my friend should be doing something better than worrying about me. idk what to do anymore. im scared to open up to him because im afraid im going to cry and look like an idiot.

and ps i have a therapist i went to her once and im going to her again tomorrow but i dont want to talk to her. i dont trust her. im never going to tell her anything because she said she can repeat everything i say to my parents. i was like wtf!

ohh and i think im depressed idk im always upset and crying and idk why and also i have LOW self esteme and no confidence whatsoever

Answer 1

ohhh, i feel so bad for you right now. i wish there were something i could do or say to make you feel better. well in my opinion, i think you should open up to your friend. everyone needs a friend and someone to talk to. talking to him will most likely make you feel much better. it sounds like he really cares so just open up. i doubt he will judge you and if you cry, so what... ppl cry and its no big deal. well i hope you get the help you need good luck!

Answer 2

You have to be tough when it comes to this type of thing.  

Answer 3

I understand this. But I think most of it (other than the part about your parents) can be fixed. I'm sorry that they treat you that way. It's not right. As for the part about your friend, I think you should tell him. He would want to know, as far as I can tell. I think it would be good for you to have someone to talk to about all of that. He would probably be extremely supportive. He wouldn't care if you cried, and it's not healthy to hold it all in. I hope you feel better. Let me know if you need anything, someone to listen. Whatever, alright??

<3

Answer 4

Aww, hon.

Tell your friend. He sounds quite trustworthy. Open up to him, and he will help. By helping you, he won't be worrying over you.

As for your therapist, it's illegal for her to repeat anything. Even to your mother and father. She should be under a confidentiality agreement with you.

Talk to your school counselor for advice.

Good luck, dear, and don't commit suicide. If you ever feel like you're about to take your life, call 1-800-SUICIDE

They will help you. Trust me.

Answer 5

SHE CANNOT REPEAT WHAT YOU SAY TO YOUR PARENTS! unless you are planning on killing yourself. My mom is a counselour and I go to one too, but before I went my mom assured me that it was against federal law! SHE CANNOT REPEAT! unless you want her too and you agree. or you are planning on killing yourself~!

Answer 6

Don't think about suicide. And the anorexia and cutting has to stop. Things can only get better. Look at the big picture...

A friend of mine killed himself just over a year ago. Turns out he thought he was in a position he could never get out of. He didn't realize how many people cared about him and appreciated his presence... people that would have helped.

Let your friend know. Keep the conversation calm and relaxed and let him know how you feel. A good friend can be a real good therapist, in my opinion (maybe not so much at 14 years old, but getting your thoughts out will help). Keep your head up and good luck with your situation. It should pass.

Answer 7

I'm so sorry you don't trust your therapist but due to your age she has to tell your parents certain things. Have you talked to a counselor at your school? They can often help you. Please take to someone about your suicidal thoughts NOW. Remember suicide is FOREVER and affects not just you but your entire extended family and all your friends and acquaintances no problem is that big that it needs an answer that final.

Answer 8

Hi there. I want to tell you that the first poster is right. It is against the law for a counselor to do that unless you speak of using illegal substances or plan on committing suicide.

Please do not kill yourself. I feel so bad for you right now, and I mean it. Talk to your friend. Stop cutting yourself. GET HELP. Please.

Also Anorexia is deadly. I know you want to sort of kill yourself but it is terrible. I saw someone at the beach yesterday who was anorexic, it is not good and it doesn't make you look good, you are perfect the way you are.

Get help. It is all you can do. I went to a counselor before and it helped me so much with all I was going through.

As for your mom? You can move out somewhere else. But get your life in order first. Overcome your anorexia and depression. You are stronger!

There are places to go. Anywhere but your house, I can tell by reading your question that it is not a good influence for you.

If you ever need help I'm here. <3 ~Kate~  

Answer 9

Attention-Attention- Poor lasita-everything has to be about you.