Help me please with this...?

Question

I'm feeling really bad. i feel like i want to die cos EVERYONE thinks im this person that im not and all my friends hate me because of it. they have all turned against me cos they think that im a "psycho" and they are all sure im going to kill someone or want to kill someone when im older and all think that im crazy because i read serial killer books and watch horrors and go out with my uncle ghosthunting and stuff. and lots of little things that dont help.

when the truth is that i do all these things because i want to make a difference in the world and HELP people. i've told my family and friends that but they dont listen and just laugh and take the p**s.

even my own mother thinks all this about me and says that im obsessive about my crush and psychology etc.

the teachers at my school are all concerned too, and even pulled me out of lesson once cos of something i wrote in my books (song lyrics but they didnt know it).

anyway what im trying to say is that im a good person that would NEVER hurt anyone and all i want to do is help people but people just cant see it. all this is making me feel suicidal again and even more alone and im not eating properly cos my appetite is gone and i cant get to sleep at night so i think its stress.

all because of what everyone thinks is wrong.

i dont know what the **** i can/should do about it though

Answer 1

First of all, you are who you are so don't change just because people don't understand why you do the things you do. If you're interested in these things, like ghosts and horror movies, then thats just what appeals to you. If you're modeling your life after the horror genre, then I can understand why people may be concerned but as long as you're a good person and don't hurt anyone, its nothing to be ashamed or worried about. You shouldn't feel suicidal over this- thats never an answer to anything, no matter how horrible or lost you might feel. If you want to help people, then life is worth living because people need a lot of help and you could improve lives with what you have to offer! Take some time for yourself, to relax and think about what direction you want your life to take. Then, sit down with your friends and family and explain to them that you have nothing but the best intentions, you are kind and considerate and you really need their love and support right now. Maybe if they explain what your attraction to learning about serial killers is, they'll be a little less frightened but don't expect everyone to embrace it- some people would just rather stay away from those topics, and thats OK too. As long as you are happy with your life and you are a decent human being, no one has any right to criticize you or make you feel bad. And you shouldn't let it bother you so much if you know people have the wrong idea about you. Just be yourself, go after the things you want in life and you'll be fine. Good luck!

Answer 2

Well i listen to rap, read gory horror books, hardcore movies etc. and i would never hurt anyone... I'm also interested in ghosts and stuff. But my friends and family dont automatically assume i want to go and hurt anybody... Maybe its them who need to change, not you.

They are your interests, people have different interests and you shouldnt have to change them interests just because some people dont like it.

Dont know if this helps you or not, but people have worse problems than this but they just sit it through, there is no need to feel suicidal over it.

Goodluck,

Connor

P.s

If it comes to it, phone a helpline or somthing before you take action.

Answer 3

You are too concerned with what everyone else is thinking. You know yourself and that is what matters. You could be a preacher and still some would think you are just going to molest little boys. You could be a politician and some would think you are just a thief. Quit letting other people determine your mood and be happy with who you are. Let your actions speak for themselves and quit trying to "explain" how you are.  

Answer 4

Dude, the most important thing you should know is that every person is unique in their own way, and you being into horror movies and serial killer books doesnt mean that your a freak ! it means that your unique, and that you have certain interests which are some what diffrent from others...take african americans, when they cam to the US they were few ---> they were odd ----> they were diffrent ------>they were wrong...so they were faught...

everyone has the right to think and belief in their ways, unless your not breaking the law who cares ? **** 'em all...do what you wanna do, and more importantly is you are what you are, and dont let anybody change that...if they think your uncool for following what you want, then they're the ones that are uncool...however, if you change yourself to suit them...you'll be doing a great mistake to yourself...

just forget all about them, just continue to do what you want to do...dont listen to them.

Answer 5

hi

i think you may just have been misunderstood. Is there someone close to you who would take the time to listen and not judge you? sometimes it is easier to talk to someone you don't know so maybe see your gp about a counsellor.  I wonder how all the good police chiefs, investigators and crime scene investigators got started? Maybe you can channel this into a rewarding career which people would surely understand.  Good luck and please find someone to trust and talk to - the samaritans are always there if you need them.

Answer 6

Don't tell people if you go ghost hunting or when you read books n stuff like that, make some new friends and change how you act around everyone and forget about them if they can't accept you then they suck