I know what depression is, but why? How is it chemically balance?
My dad committed suicide 5 years ago - 2 weeks after I had a baby he hung himself in the basment. I know its not my fault, me and my dad were so close was he not happy being a grandfather? does this chemically balance cuase this? how is depression chemically balnaced? For the longest time I had so many mix emotions. When first I found out my family - (mother) lied to me in my face saying he had a heart attack. I guess she didnt want to break the news to me after having a baby. Witch I thought was so wrong of her to do and I still hate her for that! The day I found out how he died was on his fruneral and not a way I wanted to find out. Anyway Why do I feel ashamed for his death, when people ask me how he died or diagnoses I say "heart attack". I can't even talk to anyone about this cause im afraid of what they think of me!!! As im so clueless on what to do any advice cause this been eating me up for 5 years ...
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