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So. I see a therapist every week or two weeks and I am currently on Zoloft, which doesn't do a d**n thing. I'm wondering if I even have a problem? I mean. It's hard to explain. I'm usually very happy and get along well with people, but I have trust issues and only let my family and one friend really know who I am. I get angry or stressed out very easily about school and this usually ends up in cutting myself so I can chill out. Or if I'm mad at a certain person I will make a cut just for them.

My suicidal thoughts usually start when I have a lot of work to do... I will usually think to myself, "Well if I kill myself then I won't have to do it." and once I think that, it never goes away. ever. For about 2 years now. I can just see myself jumping in front of a train and feeling that emotion. It gets upsetting... but is that just laziness? am i just being over dramatic?

I binge eat a lot. I can go through about a gallon of ice cream in one sitting because ice cream comforts me. And then of course I feel horrible after that. This happens several times a week. Luckily I am not overweight..

I'm one of those people that needs a reason for everything. It bugs me. I need to know if I'm just a worthless lazy person that needs to get off her *** and start doing stuff, but the thought of that upsets me and makes me not want to live. I don't know if its depression because I'll only be depressed for a few hours. Is there something else that it could be? blah.

Answer 1

u expect too much of yourself.

Answer 2

It is difficult to admitt one has a problem, but look at it this way, if you really want the thoughts to quit, and the mood swings, you have to admit you have a problem. You should print your question out and give it to your doctor. if you don't like her and feel she's not helpiing, then go to another one. don't give up. don't think they're all quacks. i used to think that. then, i got so low that i had to turn to someone for help, and a doctor was the only one who could do it. so, try again. i think, from experience from others and myself that you might be suffering from bipolar. but check with your doctor.

Answer 3

have you mentioned this to your DR. you seem to need a lot more help then 1.your dr is currently giving and possibly because you have not told her these things and 2.you really are beyond any help that we could offer you need more help get it this is serious problems no matter what you think tell your mom and let her talk to dr.

Answer 4

You have had mental illness long ago. Your depression is still mild but the psychotic behavior has been changing. To remove depression remove the expectations that are in error. Look at life and be realistic.

Answer 5

You are not lazy.  You have other problems.  You should take to your dr about changing your medications.  Suicide is not the answer to anything.  There are people out there that love you and will always be there to help you if you will be open and honest about your feelings.  If you are not throwing up after binge eating then you are just destressing.  We all have comfort foods.  Main thing is  keep the lines of communication open with the people close in your life and let them help you.  You are a special person and have to be around to see all the beautiful things in this world.  There are alot of things to see.  I hope you get the chance.  Good Luck and God Bless

Answer 6

tell your doctor your drugs aren't doing anything

but really

you shouldn't rely on medication to replace what you can't make up for

there is no magic pill out there that will make everything all better

just chill out and realize that not everyone over thinks things and that you just have to chiill, smoke a j or something

Answer 7

Hey Girl,

Yeah you have problems but hey who does not in todays world? Take one day at a time. If your meds don't help ask your doctor about something else. Tell him/her what you are going thru and ask what he suggests. That is the best way to deal with that.

When I am feeling really down I usually think like this...

1) I could kill myself, I could want to kill myself, but what about those people out there that are told they only have 2 or 3 weeks or months left to live? They never get the choice to call 911 and save their *** they just die. That has got to be scary.

2) For every person that has it bad someone else always has it worse.

You are doing great for being able to admit you have a problem. As for your binge eating, try to eat healthier but take one step at a time. Don't try to fix everything at once. It will never work.

Try your best, talk to your doctor, try to turn your life around, think about all the good in your life, and live your life!

Best wishes.

Answer 8

It sounds like you have some anxiety issues along with some form of depression. Ask your doctor about a medication like Lexapro - it treats both depression and anxiety.