Help! what should i do? T___T?

Question

i am having weird dreams. i'm 19. and i found out i was adopted last year through an aunt of mine who passed away early this year. My second parents do not know i've already known.

Ever since i always had dreams of a man in a tux and i glamourous lady claiming to be my first parents. Or a businessman with a wife who looks like me. and so many more. it was always a short and blurry, but i knew what was happening.

i do not like my family now and i have all sorts of wish, such as getting myself injured and in coma so i would not need to talk to them, or when i'm lying in the hospital i'll scream at my mom and ask her to leave me alone. and my boyfriend seems to be in every dream there for me and supporting me. I also have wish such as them get killed in a car crash but then i do break down and cry too and there's more.

But last night, i had another weird dream and it's bothering me now. It seems so real! my pillows were wet from the tears.

Answer 1

Your dream is telling you about the things which you feel are lacking and you wish to come true. Just like seeing your biological father, having an understanding mom and a school of your choice. Crying is an outlet of your subconscious to release the pain you feel.

You Mom is overprotective and maybe she has reasons why she's doing it. Maybe she's so insecure of what might happen to you because you're their only child. And she cannot accept it yet that you're already grown-up and you have to start learning how to be independent. It could also be that she cares for you too much, that resulted in you resisting that much care because you feel you have no more freedom to do what you want.

Try asking yourself, what will you do if you meet your real parents, will you also hate them because they gave you away?

Before you do something which you might regret in the future, think it over first. Learn how to communicate with your adoptive parents and talk to them with respect even if you don't like them. Be honest to them about how you feel. You tell them also that you know already that you're an adopted child. A good time to talk with your parents is when you are not angry. Learn to listen and be open.

Answer 2

Talk to your second parents!

You're dreams are probably subconsciously telling you to,

and you'll never know- your second parents might tell you something important.

and your 19 ?

if you do not like your family, then move out!

no need to hurt yourself and have regrets.

just move out,

but make sure you have a job first...

and that you're capable on making your own food, and handle money.....