Help with Depression

Question

I'm 17 years old and I have depression. Many people in my family have it as well. I always feel sad, and I don't even know why. I feel like crying most of the time, everything upsets me, I'm always bringing my family's mood down. I try very hard to be happy and have fun but no matter what I always have this bad feeling looming over me, and I always feel sorta guilty when I'm out of the house, its been this way for years. Even if I have permission to be out. When I go see a movie I feel terrible the whole time. For some reason I won't let myself have fun. I don't really have fun at all anymore. Sure, I laugh and smile a lot when I'm with friends, but inside I feel like screaming. I've taken depression pills for it, adderall xr and other names I can't remember, but nothing really works. I also think I have social anxiety. I can't really talk much when I'm around people, I've been home schooled for years, something that I regret asking for. I always get really hot and I turn red, I can't breath and get dizzy and pass out when I'm around a lot of people. I have lived with my grandmother since I was a baby. My parents divorced when I was 6 months old, and my mother hasn't really had much to do with my life, in fact I haven't talked to her for years. My father, well he's been there but not much. My grandfather has been like a father to me, and my grandmother, in my opinion, is my mother. I made some bad choices a while back, like trusting people that I probably shouldn't have. I had a daughter a year back, but a lot of things happened that ended in me having to give her up for adoption, something I regret badly. I loved her very much. I wanted her badly. I seem to only be truly happy when I'm with children. My daughter's father ran off to mexico after some things happened about 2 weeks after she was born. I am currently married to wonderful man that has changed so much in my life. I've known him for years and I'm pretty certain that I've loved him all along. I know, I've married young. He has made me open up much more than I used to. He helped me through so much and has always been there for me, no matter what. My grandmother, grandfather and my husband are truly the only people I can count on.When I married, I had to move to San Antonio, I lived in Iowa at the time. Now I'm away from my grandparents. I've been here since May, and so far the only person here I can talk to other than my husband is my brother-in-law, who is 31 and lives here in this house with us. His family has been so wonderful to me, its really great to know that there are still nice people in the world. His mother knows what it's like for me to come here and not know anyone, or even know the area. She moved from the Philippines to the U.S when she married, so she's been pretty supportive. I had gotten a babysitting job here that was really keeping me going, I was pretty happy, and I loved those kids. A 6 year old and a 5 month old. They were wonderful and I never had to get after the 6 year old because she was so well behaved. After a week my mother-in-law found out that I was working in a quite bad area, and made me quit. I understand where she comes from on it, she had a lot of reasons that I won't go into. Now I have no kids to be around and I feel lonely all the time. My husband is working daily and I just want to sleep all the time because its the only time I don't feel so bad, but I can't sleep. At night, during the day, I just can't sleep. I toss and turn for hours and I end up just laying there crying again. I try sleeping pills and they make me feel worse, and take about 4 hours to start working on me.My depression is affecting myself, physically and mentally, and it's affecting them as well. I want to know if there's anything I can do to help it? If there's a way to overcome this and feel better, even if its just a little bit, I really need to for my family. They care so much for me and I can't stand to see them unhappy.

Answer 1

sorry..that's too long for me to read...but i hope you get undepressed.(=

Answer 2

Wow. Long story. But if you like working with kids so much. Go into that career path. Take some college courses at home, get a degree in some sort of child care, and you'll be to work a few months after getting a degree. :]

Answer 3

Step 1: Ensure your emotion is controlled daily. Don't over reacted, stay calm and don't get worry easily

Step 2: Think before your action. Don't repeat her past experience on herself. Remind herself from time to time.

Step 3: Be confident to yourselves. Remember everyone is the winner. "Only One sperms out of millions fertilize an egg"

Step 4: Get a group of close friends to share your experience and get some activities that would occupied your time

Step 5: Increase scope of life. Meaning that she should involve in more social activities like dancing, outing and others.

Step 6: Put a rubberband on the wrist. If there is a negative thought, Tighten the rubber band and release it. Hence the effect of the pain would be able to reduce the possibility of negative thought.

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Answer 4

Many of us people have been through a lot of pain and sufferings..but your life must go on no matter how hard life it gets you..there is no need to be further hurt by the unpleasant event after it is over. you must fight that depression and don't think too much because it will waste you time and always try something new in your everyday life that will make you busy...whenever i feel bad i just close my eyes and talk to our lord asking for his help that he would always give me strength to overcome all the problems i encounter in my life and after that I'm ok..try it maybe it could help you..

Answer 5

Smile. And watch Ellen DeGeneres.  

Answer 6

I agree, you should definitely finish high school, if you haven't already, and go to college somewhere to get a degree in child care. Then you could work at a day care or as an elementary school substitute teacher.

Try taking a long shower. You will always feel better afterward. Then lie in bed and listen to your favorite music. Within Temptation and Nightwish are the best for me, but everyone has different tastes. It doesn't have to be happy music, which can sometimes sound like it's mocking you, but it should be meaningful to you and not overly negative.

Don't be embarrassed to ask your family for help. They care about you and don't want you to be unhappy. Avoid isolating yourself from them because it will probably only make you feel worse. Call your grandparents just to talk. Maybe ask them to visit you in Texas.

I get dizzy, hot, and out of breath too, like all the air around me disappeared. It helps me to make sure I don't get too hungry and stay in cool areas -- not the easiest task during a San Antonio summer, I know. It might help you to make some friends your age and go to more restaurants and parks to be around people more. If you're nervous about going back to school, try to choose one that has small classes available with only a dozen or so students -- no lecture halls. Take it slow... don't go to any crowded rock concerts just yet.

Can you visit your daughter? Or did the adoption terms prevent you from seeing her? You probably won't be able to get your daughter back, but you might be able to visit her. At least find out who adopted her, if you don't know already, and ask them if they are willing to send you pictures.

Talk to a therapist, or switch if you're already seeing one, because what you're doing now isn't working. Keep trying different pills, because they're all slightly different and even if one doesn't work, another one might. I wish you good luck and hope you feel better soon.  

Answer 7

i dont know honey. just keep finding a therapist until you find one that you trust. also try reading Prozac Nation, it's a book about a girl that fought her way through depression. i think it might help you some to find that there are other people out there going through similar things and that you are not alone. it's based on a true story and she comes out better.