Help with this dream...it's really bothering me.?

Question

My dream:

I was an active heroin user and I was with my boyfriend who also was. We were in a homeless shelter and guy #1 was picking a fight with us and I stepped up and he was like "you're nothing but a junkie and I bet you're proud I'm calling you that." I left the room we were in for a minute and I came back and guy #2 was there. They had my computer and were watching p**n on it together and shut it off when I came in. I ended up leaving again and the same thing happened when I came back again. I stormed out and I was asking if people could give me a ride back to this other city and no one would and someone said it cost 30$ to take the bus and I went to find my money that I stashed earlier and it was gone and I started flipping out and asked who stole my money and about 20 people raised their hands to **** around with me and I started crying and was like just give me 15$ of it back and I'll go out and jack the rest, I just don't have time right now.

Answer 1

wow - how about

1)   left over feelings of shame for being a user...

2)   Mistrust of men - sneaking degrading images of women.

3)  Desire to escape

4)  frustration that you cannot get out

5)  feeling like people are not helping you right now.

pretty clear to me - whether they are current feelings or left over feelings from the past - that is for you to say...

Answer 2

First of all, congratulations on a big step in transforming your life and taking steps to follow your bliss!  You've made an awesome decision and are still in the middle of this transformation, taking steps to leave an old "you" behind.

All dream symbols are very personal to the dreamer and always about the dreamer.

my assessment on this is that you're still attached to the same lifestyle in a way, although you've left the drug habit (your ex bf) behind, you still have something as a part of your life, "hitting" on you, trying to be a keep you in that place you're trying to leave behind.  Does this guy #2 do drugs? Is he tied into a drug lifestyle? Is he a type of guy you don't really want anymore? What does this guy represent as a whole?  It seems that something is tugging at you to leave or reject him and whatever he represents, because you see that deep down inside, he's a  part of a lifestyle you're trying to leave behind. You've grown as a person (Yay!) and you're no longer a match for it.   However, you're feel that  something is holding you back   (the missing money) from getting to the place  you want to be at.

Examine your thoughts. It is always a fear of moving on, or fear based  thought pattern that holds you back from moving on to the next stage in finding your truest self and happiness.

Thoughts such as "I'm not good enough" or "I'm not that kind of person" or "I could never have that".

What are your wildest dreams?  Start dreaming about, writing about, drawing and visualizing what you DO want in your life and accept nothing less.

:) Best of luck in your journey. I'm proud of you.