Im sorry this is so long but its VERY important to me.
Im going into my senior year playing football for our D2 team, ive played football for 8 years as a lineman. Our team is very small compared to previous years, we have maybe around 22 guys total on varsity. Were almost finished up with our ironman camp now and a lot of our lineman are already down with bad injuries. This summer leading into camp ive lost A LOT of weight (i now weigh 190 lbs) and have gotten into by far the best shape of my life. I can run faster harder and longer than any other backs we have. I had my soul completely set on being a fullback for our team. It was going to be completely new to me, but every drill, every sprint and every excersize i put everything into and everything i did i made sure i did better than everyone else. I mentally corrected other peoples' mistakes and practiced them in my head and made sure i did it better in EVERYTHING.
Theres maybe 5 people who say they play fullback (no one plays fullback as a primary position, theyre mostly all linebackers who double as fullbacks) and there all smaller than me. I know for a FACT i can play it better than anyone else. But because the line is hurting so badly, there moving me back there with people 100 lbs heavier than me. I used to be a really good lineman, but that was when i was when i was 260lbs. they moved me yesterday and ive been in complete shock ever since because i committed everything to it. Im not here on the team for friends or for fun anymore, i joined here to excel at something different and to get my life back on track by playing FB.
Everyone on the team notices how mad i am, and everyone talks to me about it but sometimes i have to stop to keep from tearing up. The coaches notice too but they throw out bullshit compliments to keep me from getting discouraged. I feel like im ready to quit. My coach played the 'do it for the team' card and dont be selfish, but i feel like its selfish of them to ask this from me. What is your view on this? What would you do if you were me? Im so lost right now, i really dont want to play on the line and the coaches keep reassuring me that its 'where i belong' and im 'still a grunt on the inside'. its so frustrating that there trying to bring me back there. I ran EVERY back drill faster and harder than anyone else but it doesnt matter. I really think they are making a poor choice.
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