I am going through a manic episode right now, and I think this is the dysphoric type.
Anyway, I got in a car accident, and I guess i also got some type of PTSD.
My parents were given the choice of any car for that same price to replace it, and they picked the exact same one, same color everything. When I sit in the,car, first I start thinking about how the accident happened, and then I get into extreme rage and start banging the steering wheel and then I start flooring it going 100 mph screaming, and other stuff.
So I am scared that I am going to not only myself, but hurt others, so I decided I am not going to drive that car anymore and get a job and buy my own car.
Problem is my parents always want me to run errands, and they tell me to take the car. OR they will go tell me pick some relative or friend up from wherever.
Yeah, most people here will think i am some spoiled and obnoxious brat, but whoever understands dysphoric mania pstd, pertaining to certain memories, they will understand I can't sit in that car and I need to explain it to my parents.
I told them that its giving me bad memories and putting me into fits of rage and they told me "grow up you big loser". I am 19 btw.
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