I married a man who totally wooed me with his romanticism, his devotion to me, his faithfulness, the fact that he made me the center of his world, and because every time I would break up with him for no reason other than my initial confusion (I was confused for the first 3 months, partly bc I had another suitor) he would cry and beg me to not leave him. He totally brought to life my old Disney fantasies and I just couldn't believe how lucky I was. We got married and everything was wonderful.
One thing that I noticed even during the courtship, which has become worse, is his unbridled anger. He gets excessively mad for things like somebody not answering the door for him right away or because people drive the speed limit (which he considers slow). Now that he's become comfortable with me I am often the target of his anger and I get told some really mean things that I do not deserve. I have often explained this... when he's angry, he just tells me to shut up. When he's not, he says he's really sorry-- but he does it again. Perhaps I may be exaggerating, but I am starting to feel emotionally abused. I have considered divorcing him, even though we've only been married for a month and a half. But I don't want to be a coward. Marriage has its ups and downs, doesn't it? However, I will think twice before having kids with this man.
I just don't understand how a man capable of so much love and affection is capable of so much hatred and anger. What should I do? Earlier today when I explained this to him, he was already calm and told me he's going to try to change because he doesn't want to be like his grandfather. But that I'm going to have to be patient. And that when he says something stupid, to just ignore him. Is this what I should do? I certainly don't want to be like his mom. The poor lady gets told off all the time, and she submits to him quietly, and still looking after her 25-year-old son. Sigh. I guess I'll do this temporarily, we'll see if after time he'll change like he said. What do you all suggest? I need help.
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