The thing is, I'm only about 1% afraid that my fiance is going to cheat on me. 99% of my jealousy stems from the fact that he is spending time with a woman that is not me. If it were one of his guy friends, I wouldn't even be fazed.
We are getting married soon, so I flew across country on Thursday to our wedding location so I can tie up loose ends. He's not flying down to join me at the location until this Wednesday.
I guess he got lonely because he called me a few minutes ago and said he was going to see a movie. We made small talk a few minutes, then he said he was actually seeing the movie with one of his female friends.
I appreciated the call, but I felt threatened and jealous like she took my place. A little voice in my head whispered, "She's prettier, thinner, more creative (I'm a teacher, she's a clothing designer) than you. No wonder he wants to spend time with her."
In fiance's defense, he rarely spends time with other females, especially independent of me when I'm in town.
How can i get over these insecurities? I don't want to push my fiance away and become an insane, jealous freak. And if some of you think I'm already there, I want to change.
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