How can I get these thoughts and urges out of my head?

Question

Every night when I'm sleeping I'd think about school and why I DON'T want to go. Then I'd think about me dying (suicide). Then, like last night, I had a similar yet different dream where I was still thinking about school and why I don't wanna go, but then I'd end up beating someone up. I've had to resist this urge before, because I almost ended up beating up this annoying ***** who isn't mature and wouldn't shut up. I feel like I'm gonna kill someone... or me... By morning I forget everything I thought that night, then it comes up again when I'm sleeping. PLEASE DO NOT SUGGEST A PSYCHIATRIST BECAUSE THEY DONT HELP. I don't want to spill my heart out to this person either. Please help!

Answer 1

You say you dont want to spill your heart out to a psychiatrist, who is a mental health specialist used to dealing with problems like yours, yet here you are spilling your heart to total strangers?

I used to hate them too, but they actually really help you. At least consider a therapist? They're not psychs, there more like "normal" people who care.  

Answer 2

i guess u dont have to spill your heart out to a psychiatrist, because sometimes they cannot put themselves in your shoes, but he/she could give you drugs to balance your brain chemicals, your serotonin levels may be too low right now thats why you also think of suicide. plus, you may not really like school coz it doesn't interests you, because its just another daily routine to think of (like having a job). and about that annoying person, maybe you just have to stay away from him, someday he will get a payback anyway (karma), and find a person who is understanding, open-minded that could be your outlet coz its not good to supress everything you feel and think

Answer 3

you are anxious about school you need to find out why, are you getting bad grades? are you being bullied if so, tell your parents, you should try yoga, this is very good to soothe your mind and soul. you may also try meditation exercises this is excelent to control  a noisy brain. pray at night, do you beleive in god? if you don't ,you need to start now, and finally the power it's inside you "relax" school it's not bad and don't let others control your feelings.

Answer 4

If there are any issues at your school ,then try talking to a higher authority like your teacher about it., If that doesn't help , ignore everything else expect school work. Trust me it really works and improves your grades, because your entire focus is only put into learning.  It worked for me.  It's your choice. If you prove others you're smart by getting higher grades, then they'll stop picking on you.  

Answer 5

i've had exactly the same problem.

I see someone and had a couple of sessions which helped me greatly so i suggest the same to you . Even i didn't want to do it but just have to bite the bullet and do it.

not easy to get through and i still struggle to this day sometimes which is a year and a half later.

Good luck

Answer 6

If you're being bullied or teased, visit this site for help.

Answer 7

It is okay to have thoughts and urges.  You can think about anything you like, as long as you DON'T act on them.  (Michigan State University, Psychology 101, 1989)

Something is going on with you at home or at school.  You might know, you might not.  A psychiatrist is different from a psychologist.  One helps with working through problems with medicine, the second by talking.

You don't have to talk to them if you don't want to, but there are a couple of things you should know. #1 is that they have to keep everything you say confidential.  They can't tell your parents, friends, classmates, school, no one, not without your permission.  (That includes your school counselor)

#2 the school counselor's job is to work through things just like why you don't want to go to school.  They also get you OUT of class in order to talk about it - YEAH!

#3 Feeling like you are going to kill someone or yourself (that doesn't mean acting on it) could be important information for a doctor that allows them to make the thoughts go away with medicine.  Take it every day and you're good.  It doesn't even mean you're crazy.

If you are really feeling like you need to get some aggression out, you might want to think of signing up at a local boxing gym.  Most of them run by USA boxing allow you to go in and sign up for $35 for the year and learn.  You never have to box, they never structure things like with other sports.  There are kids there from 8 years old on up, you can jump rope, hit a speed bag, or bang the heck out of a heavy bag.  They are usually open after school and no one teases anyone there because when everyone starts they are beginners, and the weight classes are for guys super skinny to super big.

Think away....just don't act....and you don't have to talk to anyone, but if it gets you out of class, no one knows, and the thoughts stop....might be a cool way to fix it all.