Here's why.
1. He's leaving me for another woman - a former stripper who was a client.
2. Before that, he had an affair with his secretary.
3. During that time, he had a fling with an undergrad he met in a bar.
4. His friends all knew & condoned. Why? Because he lied and said that I beat him up and refuse to have s*x. Oh, and also I "tricked" him into marrying me. That is all unbelievably untrue and I wonder if I can sue for slander because it's absolutely false & malicious. It's also ironic since he had, on occasion, been physically abusive towards me and he never wanted to have s*x with me ever since his new secretary was hired. Before I thought it was a coincidence. Now I get that I'm a frigging moron.
5. The house is in his name.
6. Most of the belongings were purchased with his money.
7. I went back to college to finish my degree and he said that is what set all this off because he wanted a "full-time wife who supports him". I'm only through with one year and have a three or four more to go, depending on the route I take.
8. He keeps threatening to take away the dog that he said I could keep. This is scaring me to death.
9. He took all the money out of our joint account. I don't contribute as much as he does, but I do have scholarship and work/study money that I put in.
10. He told me that I'd better not file for divorce and I must just let him handle everything (he's a lawyer...I put him through law school...stupid me) or else he'll "bury me in legal fees" and he says he has tapes of me disparaging certain acquaintances and he'll play it to them just to embarrass me.
11. My family is siding with him. They are very old fashioned and strict religious-wise and they think that I was not being a good wife, otherwise my husband wouldn't have strayed and left me. They honestly think I didn't "try" hard enough and are being really rude to me about it when I really need emotional support.
I feel like I'm in a nightmare. School is starting up again soon and I don't want this to mess that up. I've always wanted a college degree. I'm 31 years old and didn't start until I was 30 because I married early and worked and put my husband through college and law school....my job was to be his wife and when I turned 30, I just decided that I need to do this. On the first day, I stood outside and did deep breathing exercise because I was so intimidated, but now I really like it. I think I can be o.k. on my own...eventually. But I'm freaking about these petty things he's holding over me now. I'm just scared. Oh, and humiliated. Absolutely humiliated. And hurt. This just sucks. I feel like failure and I don't know what to do. HELP!!
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