I am seventeen. I am constantly stressed out. I leave for school at 6:40, I get home from school at 3:30, and I spend most of my time at home attempting to do my homework. I will sit with my books open for hours having a mental breakdown. I am always behind in my classwork. I am usually up until 2:00 at night finishing the homework because it needs to be done, but I am exhausted during the day. Other than stress from school, I have a lot of stress with my personal life. I've lost all of my friends in my three years of high school. At the beginning of my freshman year my three best friends moved. I made a new best friend who stopped talking to me at the beginning of my sophomore year. I would hang around with a group of girls at my school during the first few months of my sophomore year, but around December they dropped me. My cousin would include me with her friends freshman year, but sophomore year she stopped including me. I am just beginning my junior year. I still find myself stressing about these events and my grief from being rejected and left by everyone I've ever loved. Because people have left me so many times, I am too afraid to make new friends so I become stressed and tense in any social situation. I always assume people dislike me, which I am sure quite a few people do. I often think about a suicide attempt and I think the reason for this is so people could see the depression and strain I am in. How can I stop stressing over all of this and calm down?
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