How can i accept that my life is meaningless and hideous ? ?

Question

i hate life right now and i cant see it getting any better for me. as long as im the ugly kid , i think that i will fail in life at everything because of my 100 percent low self esteem. i spend hours and hours looking in the mirror trying to accept myslf but i just dont see an ugly piece of c**p like me as anything else but a low life. i hate how i can be the nice person but still being nice only gets you even more success in failure. i have the worst luck ever , im the only person who got acne in school , i am kinda chubby and i lost weight and im still losing weight and i still dont look any better , i hate going out in public because i see guys with their girlfriends and i know that i will never have one because i want a pretty one .i cant see myself with an unattractive girl because im already the ugly one. i hate how people act like they are better than me and because im ugly i cant do anything about it. i want to be an actor but i will never be taken serious because im hideous. i cant see me on camera making a fool of myself so i just dont even have my dream as an option. i always stay quiet and isolated 24/7. i dont really i friends and i dont want any because they can persue what they want and i have to be the ugly kid that watches. i dont want to die unhappy but i dont want to live like this. inside of this shell my attitude would be c**k and outgoing but i cant have a cocky attitude when im ugly because people will tell me off. i wish i could just switch bodies with a real person for a day just to see how wonderful it would be to not be ugly. every since i was little i always dreamed of being this amazing person in the world , its like my dreams wont happen if i continue to feel this way. i want to be an actor so bad but my face is not good enough i'll look stupid on screen. or i'll only be casted in comedies to be made fun of. i look up to people like johnny depp, shia labaof , terrence howard , and heath ledger. im not asking to be a model i just want a normal face.i respect jack black because he' not considered to be hot but he's just good enough. i cant even be atleast that because i have a face that is not defined of clear. minus the chubby cheeks and acne i feel that i would look amazing but my horrible genetics just telling me to forget anything i have planned.

Answer 1

Worrying & stressing over things that are outside your control (genetics, how other people behave, etc...) is not helping your hormonal levels (a leading contributor of acne).

Take a deep breath......

Take another one.....

now

I know you will hear lots of people telling a whole bunch of stuff - BUT

you need to be you.  Your size, your face doesn't matter. and if you think that those actors look so perfect in real life, you need to maybe find an internship at a local tv studio & see what makeup artists do to get them looking so good (as a graphic designer, I know how great airbrush and the right makeup works for folks).

Just do you...

Answer 2

Do you know how many people have or do feel the way you do?  We've all gone through it.  I thought I was ugly as could be in school.  Always got picked on.   I joined the Marines out of High School, got in shape, got a better attitude and eventually got married.  I have two kids.  My now ex-wife was HOT !!!!!   Have you ever seen Kirk Camerons (From Growing Pains) wife.  She played Kate in the show.  My ex-wife looked just like her with a bit of Brooke Shields thrown in.  I have over the yrs. dated some really HOT looking girls.  It's ALL IN THE  personality.  I may not have model looks but I'm a nice guy and I treat girls right.  Find out what you are good at and work on improving it.  Become something with your life and just don't sit there wasting it on feeling sorry.  I did and if I could have those yrs back I wasted.   Again, all that stuff you said up there, almost every boy, girl, woman, and man has gone through that, thought it, and felt the way you do.  It's part of life and growing up and I wish I knew you to see you in about 10-15 yrs as you look back and say "Man, look at me now.  I have a great life, a great family, a great wife, and d**n I look good!!!"  Those people were right.......Hang in there, stay tough....keep your head up, IT WILL GET BETTER !!!!

Answer 3

How old are you? I wish I could tour high schools across the US and tell kids that once you are out of high school, NOTHING like that matters. The 'real world' is NOT like that at all. I wish someone had told me that because I felt hopeless when I was in high school too. Look forward to getting into the real world and you will not feel as though you stand out as the ugly kid. Seriously - people do not treat you badly once you're a grown-up. I promise. Good luck hon

Answer 4

Ok its time to stop feeling sorry for yourself and take some action. YOU choose your life, and you make your own luck.

1. You need to see someone about your body image problems, they really concern me. Surely you cannot be as bad as you think, and that really worries me. You need to get some professional help about that. Have you ever heard of body dyspmorphic disorder? maybe you should do some reading about that. See a doctor or counselor, I'm begging you.

2. You can make yourself feel attractive. Get something for your acne (eg Proactive, see a dermatologist or medication). Get a cool haircut, style it nicely and wear clothes that you feel good in. Wear nice cologne. Go to the gym or lift weights at home and get a sculpted body.  

3. Dont give up on your dream of acting. You'll regret it for the rest of your life. Enrol in drama classes and make friends with people who will appreciate your talent and other qualities. Remember that people dont make friends based on physical appearance, they make friends with people who are warm, friendly and kind and make them feel good.

Most of all, as mentioned already. PLEASE get some professional support. You dont have to be miserable. Good luck!

Answer 5

Awwwww *Gives hug*...Thats a really sad story =[

You really need to wise up and realise that you are b-e-a-utiful !!! It's whats on the inside that counts !!! Let me tell you that from the age of 13 I had acne...but I use this product called "Clearasil" and now, at 15 my skin is sooo clear.  You should get it, or something like it.  You'll be amazed at the change in your face =] As for the chubby cheeks, thats cute =) lol If you don't like them try dieting.  One day you will get your life on track, and never let anyone put you down !!! Not even yourself.  Shoot for the moon, because if you fall, you'll land on a star =)

P.S I look foreward to seeing you on the "Big Screen" sometime soon xD

Cheer up son !!!!!!!!!!!!! Hope I helped