I dont know what to do. This older guy i fell in love with wants absolutely nothing to do with me. but i cant stop thinking about him.
Details...we were casual friends for a while (during which i did crush on him for a little) before we became really close friends because of his help when i went through a really tough time. He was so understanding and caring during that time..he didnt mind it when i bothered him at all hours of the night with something. but after a while, he started making me become more independent. which i knew had to happen, so we stayed close friends, but i didnt need him as much. but then he started pulling away even more. long story short...he didnt want to be so close (rumors were starting about us...he's legal, im not) so after trying to be nice about it, he forcefully pushed me away because, i admit, i didnt listen to him.
shortly after that he got a girlfriend (ironically, MY AGE) and after wondering why i was so jealous...i realized that i loved him. he pried this out of me and then everything go so much worse. every time i tried to talk to him we ended up arguing and again, i admit i blew up a lot and basically screwed up any chance i may have had. but i also know i wasnt the only one who screwed up the friendship we couldve saved. he has a temper too and said some pretty hurtful things. but now he blatantly shows he wants nothing to do with me. he doesnt make eye contact, doesnt talk to me, talk about me, refer to me, anything.
even though hes caused me so much pain i cant force myself to get over him. i dont want to love him anymore...but i still do. and every little thing i do reminds me of him. my phone reminds me of how much we texted. school will just remind me of how stupid he is and that he cant add or spell. i cant get him out of my head and i want it to effing stop!!
this happened months ago. and im sick of always having him on my mind. ive tried so many things but i always end up thinking about him. please help me!!
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