How can i stop feeling suicidal and feel happy again? suggestions?

Question

So basically, I am becoming more and more depressed each day. I am in counseling but its not really helping, not the counselor's fault. I just graduated high school in june, but due to circumstances, i cannot attend community college til next fall, neither me nor my mom can afford a car for me yet due to my mom being a single parent and financial struggles and no bus/carpool to get to said community college.

SO i guess i am working full time for just ONE year until i can go next fall. I am just upset because i feel really lonely/upset because i was looking forward to meeting friends at college. i just feel really empty. cause now my mom got a great new job, and we dont have to worry for finances for now, but shes working long hours and comes home really snappy and i get yelled at for doing nothing wrong. seriously. i help my mom financially and i dont smoke or drink or do anything wrong. shes like my best friend. she just goes on the computer and i feel so detached from her. i hate people being mad at me for no reason. then my brothers out doing drugs and having police bring him home and stealing money out of my wallet. its so unfair. he gets everything his way. i just feel lonely. cause my moms barely home. i dont really have any friends. i feel out of place where i live its very affluent area and all the girls are acting like stuck up plastic s***s who are shallow and all the guys my age are low class wiggers yuck. i dont wanna hang with people who all just partyand get in trouble with cops all day long.

we're trying to find another church, my mom wants a more charismatic one. but until then. im so lonely. i want friends. oh and i hate my job.

HELP!!! i never feel happy. i always have bad dreams, even my dream land sucks :( even when we go on vacations people there arent too friendly its like impossible for me to make friends it feels like i repulse everyone help i hate my life

Answer 1

Since you think your life is horrible, why dont you make some bad choices... drop the counsellor, dont attend community college, leave your mom's house, dont speak with your mother, tell on your brother, quit your full time job, start smoking or drinking, go live in a poorer area, try to vacation on no paycheck and hang out with a nasty crowd

Answer 2

I know how you feel my mom didn't have a car for years. lol go to the welfare office or another public place and they will get you a free bus pass because of your finacial possition. hold in there you aren't alone.

atleast you don't do drugs or have s*x, maybe a different join will make you new friends.

not everyone is plastic, those girls- wow will not get too far.

atleast you are planning to go to college- that's good so many oppurtunites, maybe after 2 years you can always transfer to a bigger university and join a few clubs and meet people like you.

Answer 3

first, life is full of ups and downs and youre at an age when youre making the transition to adulthood where the perceived downs can be overwhelming. you can minimize this through getting lots of exercise and eating a healthy diet. try using a fish oil supplement and make sure youre getting enough protein. you sound very bright - why don't you prepare yourself for school by self studying the things at the library that you plan to study when you enroll.

have you ever thought of getting a pet? they are great companions.

if it gets real bad - try calling a suicide hotline in your area . best wishes...

Answer 4

you need to change a few things in your life and that might improve your mood, maybe find a new job or maybe meds talk to a doctor

Answer 5

Well I cant help you with your friends or your job and stuff like that.. you have to do that.. I understand where you come from about not feeling happy but I hope if you read this you will make the healthy decision and make you life a little better =] I post this answer for everyone who is talking about being depressed.. And it helps some. My opinion and studies are my purgative.. I'm not trying to preach at all.. Just trying to help people through what i have struggled through.. so read this and feel free to email me or Yahoo MSG me at yoko_haley if you'd like::

HI. my name is Haley and i am 16 years old. I used to take anti depressants. YOU ABSOLUTLY DO NOT want to put man made serotonin into your body.. (this is what makes an SSRI such as prozac) In my experience, and also in my readings anti-depressants WILL (and i mean WILL) cause you problems. Problems can range from more urges to comitt suicide or homocide, dependency, withdrawl that can last YEARS! They cause birthdefects in little babies if you take them while pregnant, and artificial serotonin has even been linked with alcholism!!

There are other ways you can make your self happy. You need to fix the problem.. Artificial serotonin just temporarily covers the symptoms up.. Like most commonly perscribeb medications.

I would recommend natural remedys.. Such as increasing your intake of vitamins to keep your body healthy and nourished. It has worked to keep me happy and I was diagnosed with chronic depression and bi polar disorder when I was 12. I used to overdose on my prozac to give my self Serotonin sydrome which caused me to have something I would descrive as "mini seizures" in the middle of class. I also tryed to comit suicide 3 times from the age of 13, to just this year, before I had weaned myself off the lamictal, and prozac.

Now I take vitamins, go on walks, and use all natural remedies. I still have extra Serotonin in my body and I belive that has caused my cravings for other pills, but i am detoxing myself and changing my life around.

I sure hope that I helped you. I may be only 16 years old, but i keep my self pretty well educated on this subject because a serotonin anti depressant caused my baby brother to have TGA. If you would like to know more about my adorable, but amazingly strong baby brother, please visit my moms blog at:

www.bigpharmavictim.blogspot.com

Thankyou and good luck!!!