Everyday something bad or wrong happens to me. Either a family member is upset with me (over something small), or am just a let down (like my nana hates how cheap I am....and I still have the T-shirt from 5th grade....and am 21 years old today) Plus I seem to attract scams, and guys who just want to have s*x with me...I tell them am a virgin and am waiting and get this I was wearing my Publix uniform then....new turn on? Any friends I make are either poor, sad, or even more depressed then me. But when I see other friends hanging out they have money, are laughing ect. anytime I talk to my friends or a total stranger its always bad to the extreme. My life sucks in general and last Christmas...I didn't have one, but my sisters did from their father...when my real father who seen me twice in my life changed his number after it took me a month to find him...he didn't even want me. I am so unlucky its so much I can say, but in general my life is a sad case. And I don't remember once when I was happy....and thats pretty risky.
But I always wanted the life I see others with not mines. Also am tired of the same people no one is ever happy, or making it or anything. Plus I feel like a loser, I don't even know what makes me happy.
Also I no longer watch tv...its been five years since I watched tv. I can't stand seeing rich people get themselves into trouble or successful people on tv acting or whatever. I can't watch the news either its all bad making me feel worse.
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