Some back ground info:
I am a divorcee who has told myself I wouldn't allow myself to be with someone who didn't try to make himself attractive for me...I'm not saying he needs to be GQ but take care of your personal hygiene and don't get comfy and fatten up. And I am not going to be with someone who is a "slacker".
Here is the situation:
I have moved away from my family about 200 miles and moved in with my boyfriend and his teenage son. (I don't have any kids by the way).
1. I run his son to and from work and try to have a positive relationship with him...which we do, but I don’t feel I am appreciated enough and now it has almost become expected, nobody asks "will you please take him to football practice" ( or whatever the situation is) and I don’t get thank you anymore either.
2. My boyfriend and I pay rent split down the middle. This last month he has been 19 days late in paying me his share (I write the landlord the check because I want to make sure she gets paid). He paid me yesterday for August 1st rent and said he was sorry it was so late and that it will never happen again.
3. He always talks about getting things fixed or doing a chore around the house, but it never gets done unless I jump on his case or do it myself (like fix the kitchen floor tiles that move around or clean the garage out, etc...This list could go on and on). I don’t mind doing these chores myself but if he says he'll take care of it I don’t think I should have to worry about it not getting done. Don’t tell me you are going to do something and then not do it.
4. Here is the kicker...when I was with my ex husband I gained a bunch of weight. I have lost some of it but not all of it by any means and I know I should work on losing more. But my new boyfriend has probably 100 lbs more on me. The other day he said to me "I’m just going to say this...you should work on toning up your legs" I was in such shock that this over weight man had the nerve to say this. I couldn’t say anything...I wanted to cry and my lip started to quiver. He knows he hurt my feelings and tried to say that he just meant that I should try to work on it now while I’m young (he's 11 yrs older) because it’s easier to lose weight when you are younger. To me he's saying "tone up chubby so I will be more attracted to you". Is that what he means? But I have been working out now and lost weight and people have noticed…you think he has said anything…heck no. And in the mean time I’ve noticed his T-Shirts getting tighter and tighter.
5. Although this doesn’t affect me a whole lot it does concern me. He has debts probably totaling up to $20,000 that for as long as we've been together he hasn’t touched or even tried to fix. We aren’t planning on getting married...and I especially don’t want any responsibility to his debts...My ex was in debt and had collectors calling and harassing me. I am not going to deal with that again. My bf knows this too that I will NEVER marry him unless he gets his money figured out.
6. He wants to get another job where he isn’t working so many hours but he hasn’t really made much of an effort. He’s not real computer literate so I helped him with his resume and printed off a bunch of applications for him and told him he needed to fill them out (I wasn’t going to do ALL of the work for him…but I’d help). He never filled out the applications and they just sat there for a few months. I threw them away last night thinking the positions he was to apply for were filled anyway. Now he has asked me to look up certificates and classes to get certifications. I want to say to him, Look them up yourself!
But now all of these issues have made me cranky and made me think he is becoming a slacker. I am not a nag and I don’t think I should have to tell him to be responsible. I’m not his mother and I am not his wife and he should be working to impress me shouldn’t he? He does work long days and fills my car up with gas once in a while but I don’t think that quite justifies everything else. Am I over reacting or maybe I am just panicking because of my ex-husband. What do you think? What would you say to him or what would you do?
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