I messed up. I'm married and have a family. The other day I passed a note to a customer I thought was "hot" asking him if he'd like to meet me after work. He said he thought I was beautiful, that he liked me, and that he'd meet me the next day. The next day I came to my senses and realized I couldn't continue with this fantasy of mine without hurting a bunch of people. When he came to me I told him my daughter was suspicious and was in the store (she was). He slipped me his phone number. We haven't really ever talked because he speaks spanish and I speak english but there was a real strong chemical reaction in my body the first time I laid eyes on him. I think he felt it, too.
If he would have met me that first day, who know what may have happened but he didn't and I am now certain I could never continue with this. I feel horrible that I pulled this unsuspecting man into my fantasy and have lead him on. I will see him 3 more times next week, then I won't have to see him again.
I cannot just ignore him, but the language barrier is killing me. The note I slipped him took me 3 hours to write because I had to look up all of the spanish phrases and make sure it made sense. His comments to me were in english, but it sounded as though he was tutored by someone bi-lingual.
What can I do to make this go away? I feel just awful.
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