I am currently seperated from my husband. I want a divorce, I know I want a divorce, but I everytime he calls me, or sees me he starts crying and begging me to give him another chance. He is a good man, and a good father, but I have lived with him for years and I just can't get over the way he has treated me in the past, and I honestly don't believe that I can change. I have lied to him about "crushing" on a man, and i have lied to him about how much time I spend or have spent with the man. I have come clean about most of the things, but I still can't get the old feelings that I have had back. He tells me that it is because I am spending time around the other man, and it is clouding my judgement. At one time I wanted the other man, I wanted a relationship with him, pretty much developed an emotional relationship with the man, talked on phone, text messaging, etc, but right now I just don't have any kind of lust or want for him either. My husband gets mad when I tell I will not promise to refrain from having any kind of relationship with anyone until we are divorced. I told him that I don't want to make any promises to him that I may not keep. I am not planning on starting any thing, but I do not want to lie to him if I do something. I want good things for him, i do not want him to hurt like he is, but I just do not want him right now, or feel like I will want him later. he tells me that I am not giving him the time to try and make it work, and he is not lying. I just don't know what to do about all these feelings against him. If anyone has any idea please let me know. Thanks.
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