How do I handle these overwhelming, time-consuming tasks-organizing my apt., daily fitness, and other things?

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Like studying my Spanish, job searching, & time-consuming computer projects?

I'm 25, & I have a BA degree in Spanish. My GPA isn't high because of my neuro-psychological disability. Therefore, I can't find any jobs with special accommodations. My GPA is only a 2.3. & it's a 2.8 in my major. My Vocational Rehab. counselor doesn't want to help me. She thinks I'm making up excuses when I tell her I can't control my tics b/c they're involuntary. She said, "Good! U can't control your tics, then I can't help you."

Therefore, I'm trying to do all these activities to improve my living & prepare for the work world.

I suffer depression, anxiety, OCD, & Tourette's. Employers see me off 1st sight & refuse to hire me because my disability is obvious. They think I'm mentally retarded & crazy. Many people tell me that employers won't hire me because of my weight.

I get distracted & overwhelmed very easily. I can't think straight. I feel like I'm losing my mind. My OCD unwanted, intrusive thoughts & anxiety slow me down. I always feel the need to take BIG breaks in between tasks, & I never get to complete them. I feel like everything is TOO much! It's overwhelming to get out of bed to go to the bathroom. It's very energy-consuming. I don't have the energy or motivation for anything. I'm too depressed.

Do you think I should do a bit of each of these personal tasks every day, or do 1, complete it, & then move on to the next one? I'm trying to do these to prepare myself for if/when I get a job. That's what mental health professionals tell me. They tell me that I should try to do things like specialized daily activities on a routine schedule & be functional, even though I'm not working. It's to help me keep up my mental health & not go insane from being bored out of my mind.

I can't find a job ANYWHERE. I'm frustrated, more depressed, & I feel mentally paralyzed. I can't think at all. My mind feels STUCK! I need help.

I'm here in the US-Texas. I see a psychiatrist, & I take 300 mg Wellbutrin, 300 mg Luvox, & 0.2mg of Clonidine. I also see a counselor & receive cognitive behavioral therapy.

Answer 1

You sound so smart! and determined!!! I would not overexert yourself with completing one task. You have alot of things to do in a day as everyone else, but sounds to me like it is 50x harder for you in an understandable way! What I would do if I were you is do your tasks everyday little by little. If it is something important Leave yourself a sticky note, that way you may be doing something else and see the sticky and go back to it. Try and get yourself on a schedule everyday. Wake up, brush your teeth, maybe eat something, study spanish ((since it is better to eat breakfast because its good for your brain!!)) That way you can remember your spanish and get it over with right away. After that try and take a 30 min-45 min break. You can go check on the computer for jobs. Employers may say they will take anyone, but alot of them can be moronic, and liars. The only way they should not hire you is if you do not meet their collegic criteria, which yes can be GPA or if someone else beats you. I would not get discouraged, it will take a while but you can do it. One thing i may suggest is you sound so smart! Why don't you think of doing a job from home, via the computer? that way you wont feel pressured to do things right away since you need breaks, and you get the job done! even if you need to bring up your GPA you can take classes online.

I offer my support to you in this time, I cannot begin to understand the hardship you have taken in your life. =\ but you are a VERY strong person for keepin up with this fast lived pace we are like in the US.

Answer 2

Have you ever thought of setting up your own blog on these subjects as you seem intelligent enough to write about them.  It could give you a goal to aim at and motivate you. If you are smart, you can make lots of money doing this and not have to go to work.

You can tell your counsellor to get stuffed too!