How do I know if I might be suicidal and that I'm not just looking for attention instead?

Question

I feel depressed and alone. I have suicidal thoughts and when I think about my future I can't see anything. I wrote a few meaningless suicidal notes, which I showed to two of my friends. I sometimes feel like breaking the rules or doing something stupid for no reason. When I see the news and hear someone died, I don't care. I haven't given anything away yet, though I think I might. I feel happy when I read a book about someone suffering and sometimes I laugh. The problem is though I feel like dying I can't die, the thought of suicide scares me. I can't cut myself because I hate sharp objects and I can't really jump off a building, I think about overdose... Entertain me with your answers even if its for a moment... ( '-' )

Answer 1

Your question reminds me of the poem entitled  Résumé by Dorothy Parker (August 22, 1893–June 7, 1967). It's about having feelings of suicide. She knew of these feelings from experience...and lived long enough to write about it.  

Hope you find it entertaining...as well as a reason to continue living.

Résumé

Razors pain you,

Rivers are damp,

Acids stain you,

And drugs cause cramp.

Guns aren't lawful,

Nooses give,

Gas smells awful.

You might as well live.

Answer 2

It sounds like you want attention. You should talk to a therapist.

Answer 3

Either way, it isn't good. You need help, quick. There are community places that will charge you as much as you can afford, including nothing. Check them out and get help!.

Answer 4

you really need to share these thoughts with your parents. it will be hard but if you don't than you might overdose. it is always hard sharing those things but your parents were put on earth so the could help you. But if you don't think you can tell your parents tell a school counselor they have to keep it a secret and whatever you do you just need to get help now. you might not see anything in your future now but you will. Trust me.