I have been having minor suicidal thoughts since I was 11. I am 15 now and it has not gotten any better, in fact worse. For the past few weeks, I have been stressing out over a major project and I have become more suicidal because it is not going the way I want it and I am being scolded. I do not have an interest in school anymore except to do well and get over this part of my life.
I have recorded most of times in my diary when I was feeling depressed. Each year, I realized that I am getting more depressed more often. None of my family members has realized that I have been having thoughts like these for so long. I do not think they know. Sometimes I feel sad or even cry for no apparent reason.
When I was 11, my teacher noted that I stayed away from my usual group and so she talked to me (I ended up crying). I have not seen any counselor though there is one in my current school now.
So how do I know that I am not suffering from depression, or am I?
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