My ex-boyfriend and I dated for a little over a year, although this was one of the shortest relationships I've had, I have to admit it was one of the most intense and closest. We were very close, I looked at him as my bestfriend. I thought he felt the same. Anyway, the last two months he started pushing me away, going out with friends, no longer inviting me, started a "friendship" with a girl from work (that he refused to admit to until after we broke up...and still denies there is anything romantic). Anyway, this past weekend he broke up with me. I seriously thought we were going to hash it out and agree to boundaries and the like. I DID NOT think he was going to end the relationship. The first couple of days I was a basketcase and stayed a girlfriend's place in another town. I eventually came back to ex-bf and I's place to figure out living arrangements. He makes a considerable amount more than me and told me I could stay here rent-free until I saved up enough to find a place. I don't have anyone else that I could stay with, so in reality I'm stuck here. It's going to take a couple of months to save up for deposits and the like....there is just no other way around it. My question is this....HOW IN GOD'S NAME DO I GET THROUGH THE NEXT FEW MONTHS WITHOUT LOSING MY MIND!! This is just torturing me. He isn't being mean to me or anything, but I'm just living here with him going out all the time, staying in his room when he is here, and it's just soooo uncomfortable! I go to the gym after work to delay coming home, and I have a few friends that I can hang out with, but they all have families and pretty busy lives...so it's limited to when I can hang out with them. It's only been a couple of days since the break-up, so it's still pretty fresh, but I'm afraid that it is going to stay fresh until I'm out of here. I need some serious words of encouragement and maybe some ideas on how to feel better about all of this. I still love him VERY much and this entire situation is just killing my spirit. Please kind words of advice is very much needed right now.
BTW...I asked him last night if he was 100% sure of his decision and he said yes...he thinks this is for the best. There is no option of reconciliation. I just need to maintain my sanity while I am working to get out of here. We both want to be friends after this, but I don't think it's possible while still living together. All I can think about is that girl he is hanging out with. We are 100% DONE.
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