How do I stay motivated to keep living and trying?

Question

I'm 16, really introverted and I've gotten into a really deep depression that my family knows nothing about, mostly because I do not feel I am the right gender. I can't bring myself to tell my mom so I have to wait for a few years to be able to do anything about it. I feel like killing myself every day, I won't because my family needs me, but because of it I've gotten lazy and I rarely eat but I'm still over weight. What I do eat is mostly healthy. I really want to start getting strong again and I'm wanting to start doing pakour/freerunning but not the jumping off buildings. I don't have any money to go to the gym and I don't have a pool so I don't have any where I like to work out I don't even have any trees to climb. I have no motivation at all and I can't sleep but when I finally do I can barely get out of bed in the morning, but I have the want to be healthy. I would love to get a phyc or something but again I have no money. I'm at the end of my rope. What do I do!?

Answer 1

i know how u feel except not about the gender thing can't help u there but i went through some depression and still am mine was when i broke up with my girlfriend and lost all my friends when i moved. What I did when i moved i found something that i liked to do a sport or something. or you could just find a spot where u can forget anything and grab a book that always helped me. And if you want to get a figure back you should set goals for yourself by running and doing pushups  and situps thats for free good luck