I waited for a concert, which i was supposed to go to today, and i waited for more then a month and hoped that i could do at least one exciting thing my whole summer that cost a pretty penny but worth it, and i asked my parents a month before and i started looking for tickets and ways to get there (basically wasted my WHOLE goddam summer preparing for it) and the day before my parents said no and i did EVERYTHING to convince to let me go. (they said it costs too much) and its not fair how they said yes before yesterday.
Anyway, im having a hard time getting over the fact i wasted my whole month over something thats not happeing which is partly thats got me deppressed and partly that the concerts on at nine today and im going to miss it for sure and i want to forget but when i try i keep getting deppressed and hope theres someway i make it there even though its in another province...
PS. i managed to get a little happy and optimistic but i think its getting freaky that im too happy and whenever i look at the time i always think: "its gonna happen in so and so hours.
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