How do i get rid of my neurosis?

Question

How do i trust myself?

the best way to describe myself is neurotic. i don't mean i worry, i mean if i get paranoid and fear something irrational, and i completely disprove that fear, it stays in my mind, making me constantly question whether or not i am right through harmful conditioning, until i find another irrational demon to focus on. and usually when i find another disturbing possibility to obsess over, i look back on my last epitaph and see it as stupid and unrealistic. for the past 3 days i have been contemplating a truth that disgusts me to think about, yet when i test myself i always get the conclusive result that i was right before, and i will be cool in the future. but in a few short minutes i start panicking again. it kills the quality of my life and makes it hard to look in the mirror sometimes. i believe i am insane, but i would rather be schizophrenic than neurotic. any tips other than visiting a psychologist?

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41 minutes ago

i have been like this for a little over a year now. i used to be kind of a nihilist, and don't really believe in any ultimate truth (except that love is beautiful), and i don't want to spend the rest of my life falling back on black days.

also, i think drugs and alcohol really level me out, give me a clearer, less-biased perspective on my life. are booze and hullucinogens the way to go?

Answer 1

No, alcohol and hullucinogens are not the way out, they are an escape! once you go down that lane, you'll escalate the problem rather than solve it.

First lets get one thing straight, if you were schizophrenic, you would be psychotic, which means that there is no way you can be treated without constant visits to the therapists and sometimes even hospitalization. And since that isn't what you want, then it's a bad choice....

Another thing, neurosis can be treated by its own in 20% of the time, since time is a healing factor. I really don't understand why you don't want to see a therapist, she/he will help you, and alleviate your problem faster, they might even prescribe medication to help fight your paranoia.

I'd advice u to see one...