The love of my life betrayed me, cut me deep. She "pretended" to be in the relationship with me when she had clearly checked out long before it ended. I caught her in an emotional "online" relationship with someone a couple of states away but promised to end it for the sake of us - I forgave. We had a fight 6 months later, she went to her mother's for a couple of weeks, and then she just disappeared (found out she had move to another state because she had gotten engaged to that emotional online friend I caught her chatting with). To add insult to injury, she wants to be "friends"...to add fuel to the fire, she says she still loves me and cares for me...to add salt to the wound, she says she is confused and doesn't know what she wants. She says this was partially my fault because I worked 2 jobs is basically what she said. I couldn't get her to understand that it takes two incomes to live, especially where we did - it probably takes 2 incomes to live anywhere nowadays. And had she worked 1 job AND contributed to something, I wouldn't have had to work 2 - not that I mind but in hindsight maybe I should have if my efforts were going to be unappreciated. The sad part is, the 2nd job was more or less for the "leisure" activities. A little extra income to do and buy the things we both liked, but mainly her (thus sometimes creating a bill). It's been 3 months and it still stings like it was yesterday - especially the wanting to be friends part. It all ended the day before our 2 year anniversary. I thought I did everything right turns out it was all wrong.
Just venting...thanks for listening.
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