How long is long enough?

Question

How long is long enough to make up your mind about suicide? I've been telling myself "wait till you get a year older, then decide" for more than ten years.

So now I'm 27, and on balance my life has been 90% pain and sadness. I don't expect it to get much better, I've become very good at keeping people at a distance, friends and the women I love.

I think I've lost the capability of being happy. I can be in a crowded room, with everybody enjoying themselves, and I'll think about how pointless life is.

Is it so wrong at one point to just end it? Because I don't want it anymore. Or should I just wait another 10 years?

(please, no Jesus loves me answers. now is not the time to be a salesman for your religion)

Answer 1

I'm a chronic depressive and have thought about suicide for years.  It isn't normal to feel this way.  It took me years and many doctors to finally get the right "mix" of meds and therapy not to feel this way.  I would advise anyone who feels like us to try meds and therapy before taking themselves out.  For myself, I don't think I could be comfortable that I had given life every possible chance if I didn't try meds and therapy as a last resort before taking more drastic steps.  I think we are all here for a reason and if you take yourself out, who knows how many lives that single act might impact or impair?

Answer 2

i really feel for you....ive been depressed but never suicidal, i know what u mean by being in a crowd feeling worthless, i learned you have to change your mind and way of thinking,,,if yoour always beating yourself up, downing yourself , worrying about others you will be depressed...find things that you enjoy stop worrying about things and let it be, whats the worse that can happen,,,,free yourself!!! if it gets really unbearable seek medication,, do what ever it takes for you to LIVE happy safe and free!!!

Answer 3

I'm really sorry to hear that, I understand that suicide must seem to be the only release from your pain. Have you ever tried speaking to someone about your problems? As stereotypical as that sounds, it really could help you. I would sincerely urge you to do so before you commit suicide or make up your mind about it. It really could be the perfect thing for you. If you need someone to talk to, you can email me, or find a counsellor.