I've never had that good a relationship with my husband's family. I don't know why but they never gave me a chance, his mum think's that I am not good enough for him. We have been married for 3 years and this has caused me a lot of unhappiness.
We didn't go on honeymoon because my husband's mum thought it would be nice if we stayed and went to his brother's 30 birthday. So yes we agreed to please her and I was ignored the whole time and every time I tried to help his mum got angry with me so I snuck out for a while!
Our whole wedding was based around what my husband "thought" his mum would want. I organised the whole thing and found it completely overwhelming, both in the preparation and on the day, and I don't know why I keep making these sacrifices when it they don't even realise and wonder why I am a little upset. I went on holiday three years in a row where they wanted to please them, and on the third year, went to see them, even though it was our honeymoon money, so I did appear a little "difficult" as I was so upset.
I know that I should be pleased to be able to go on holidays, and have a nice big wedding, but because it's not my choice I am angry and resentful.
They have since moved to Asia and we went to visit them there, and found that I was right, they blame me for my husband's arguements with his mum, even though I am constantly asking him to sort things out with her.
The way I have been brought up, is to discuss things, ok we're completely over the top, but I just feel there are all these things festering. I feel victimised as they label me as the "bad" one. I asked my husband to talk to his brother but I think it made it worse, and he said he didn't want to tell them why was upset incase they thought badly of him, so now they think I am nuts and horrible to my husband for nothing.
I know I should not be horrible to my husband, but often he makes me feel so isolated, that I am angry with him. If any of these things happened to him with my family, I would stand uo for him and try to resolve it. If ever someone in my family has said something against it, I have stuck up for him.
The crunch came when we left them in Asia after a few weeks at their place, they rang us shortly afterwards and said to me did I have their son's school bag, and then kept repeating "all we want is his school card", as if trying to appeal to my softer side. I'd buy my son his own school bag if I wanted one. When I said I didn't have it, they then spoke to my husband and asked him again.
I just don't think a family should operate like this and I find it incredible that my husband doesn't stick up for me, but he says he feels very much under the thumb of his family and I think he just needs to please them. Especially his mother.
But being accused of stealing has pushed me over the edge and I want to sort this out. One part of me thinks let rip, send them a letter explaining everything and then if it helps them understand me, well great, if not, then I tried (can't speak in person as we all live other parts of the world), the other part thinks let it go and just smile sweetly at them and let them hate me for turning my husband against his mother.
It is just that this has caused so much friction and resentment between me and my husband.
What shall I do?
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